ONE

At one I was sick. The doctors thought I would die. My parents thought so too. If I was old enough I think I would’ve thought so too. My parents almost didn’t even give me a name, because they were sure I would die, but they did give me one. Jisung, Park Jisung.

I did survive though. Even if I wished I didn’t sometimes. I did. I grew up. I learnt lessons and went through some things. Now I’m dead. Looking back at my life. Wondering what I did right and what I did wrong.

TWO

I was a happy two-year-old. I laughed a lot and fell a lot. I never really got hurt, but I still cried. Every time. My parents went into a frenzy every time I fell. Every time I cried. Scared I would get sick again.

THREE

At three my grandpa died, not that I remember. It crushed my father. He cried every night. Not being able to take care of me. Not caring about me.

I don’t blame him. I wouldn’t like taking care of a baby either, if my father died. He never did though. He stayed with me my entire life.

FOUR

My first memory is from when I was four. I know. Late for your first memory, right? Well I don’t care what you think.

My first memory was meeting this boy. He was older than me, and thinner and taller. He also smiled a lot. His name was Jaemin. He ended up being my best friend my entire life.

FIVE

My fifth year was boring. I didn’t do much. I had playdates with Jaemin and cried a lot.

Something exciting did happen though. I learnt how to spell my name. From the P to the G. It made my parents proud. Hanging up my name, written by me, on the fridge. It was still there the day I died.

SIX

When I was six my mum told me about soulmates. How everybody got a mark on their body at the age of seven. It would match your soulmate, and it would move around when they are close. They would also disappear when you met your soulmate. I was excited about getting mine. Hoping for something cool. Like a dinosaur.

Every day since my mum told me I waited for my seventh birthday.

SEVEN

At midnight on my seventh birthday my mark showed up. It was huge. I hadn’t imagined it to be that big. It was a red dragon. Over my left shoulder. It immediately started crawling around my body. Sometimes hanging out on my wrist other times dancing around my face. Even though people jumped when he showed up on my face I loved him. He was a part of me.

Jaemin got his two years earlier later. It was a blue fish. It was small, but visible. His also started moving around immediately. Swimming around his fingers. Around his waist. His mark was pretty, but mine was prettier.

EIGHT

Jaemin met his soulmate at the age of 8. Earlier than normal. They met at the playground. I was there too. The