D is for Dongho. D is for Depression

I'm Okay. 

Nothing is wrong.

It will all be fine in the end.

Yes.

I'm fine.

No.

I'm not depressed.

"Smile for the camera! Dongho."

I smile.

It doesn't reach my eyes.

I smiled.

I pretend to be happy, but I am not.

I smiled again,

Before we left, before we got on the car, before we went home.

The car was silent.

We all knew, what was inevitable.

The death of our dreams.

Soon.

I stood under the shower.

Water hitting my body.

I used to sing.

Used to.

I don't sing in the showers anymore.

I think.

Thinking about my life.

And failures.

I want to smile, but I wa