This is one long angsty train wreck of a story most of which was written between 1am-5am so don't expect much

Written for the Exordium Longfic Challenge based off a prompt someone left me four years ago. Thanks to my beta, coffee, and Sugar-and-Salt for saving my  helping me out because I would not have finished this without them.

IMPORTANT: The seasons in bold symbolize times in Baekhyun's life (e.g. spring for when he's a kid and winter for when he's old).