Today has been awful. I'm so sorry to his family, friends, and the members. If anyone here needs to talk, I am here. I can't do anything, but I can help others and tell you I love you.

I'm sorry for not posting in this story yet this month. I had been doing once a month because I was in school, but the class is ending this week, so I will have more time, soon.

I want to write more and add to this story, but the pain is very great right now. In my story, jjong is still a jerk for a little while, and I don't want anyone to feel that I ever really felt he was this way. Of course not. It will get better in the story, but let me know what you want me to do. Do you want me to wait to post more? I don't want to cause anyone any pain. 

I am sorry. I wish this weren't true. I wish there were a way to fix this. Please know that he loves us so much. This isn't the end. It will never be okay, but one day the bleeding with stop and the wound will scar. The pain will dull, but we will forever remember our shining star who left us too soon. Thank you for all the support you have given me so far. I love you all so much.