Epilogue

Remembering Sunday

 

"I guess I'll go home now"

 

With a small smile present on my lips, I stared at the beauty that was right in front of me. My arm resting atop his waist, tracing imaginary circles onto his skin. His head placed on my other arm and I didn't care even it already felt numb. I didn't want to wake him up. This moment just seemed so.. perfect

Carefully taking my arm off his waist, I reached out for his face. Tucking away strands of his pink soft hair that covered his closed eyes. As a reaction, he scrunched his nose as he usually does and moved. I was scared I had woken him up and bothered him when he was sleeping but as he buried his head onto my neck, I couldn't help but smile further. Shivers ran down my spine the moment I felt the warmth of his breath against my neck. I wrapped my arms around him and held him closer, depicting the thought that I wouldn't want to let him go. He hummed softly and snuggled closer to me.

"Goodmorning.." a sweet voice filling my ears

I don't know if it was even possible but I smiled on further before I replied, "Goodmorning beautiful.."

I felt him lightly push me away and I was greeted by those eyes that lit up the moment it met mine. Turning into those joyful crescents that I always seem to love.

"Why do you always call me beautiful?" he asked

"Because the word completely describes you.. undoubtly beautiful.." I replied, chuckling lightly the moment I saw him flushed

"Why are you so cheesy? It's like what? 8 in the morning?" he said

"I don't know and I don't really care.." I pulled him closer towards me and placed a soft kiss on the tip of his nose, "Let's stay like this for a while.." I added

He hummed once again and snuggled onto my chest, letting out a sigh of relief as I tightened my hold onto him. I knew he was smiling. I knew he was filled with joy just like I was.

"If that's what you want.." he whispered

This are the moments I realy cherish..

With Jimin right by my side, I am the happiest person alive..

 


 

We both stood there, not minding the people who walked passed us. We stared at each other, no one muttering one word to the other. We kept each other's gaze with dozens of thoughts running through our heads, thousand of things that we both wanted to say but just didn't have enough courage.

We stayed like that for a while, both not knowing what to actually do.

I knew I wanted to hold him, wanting to explain everything and just take him back. I knew I wanted to fix everything and return to what we were before everything came crashing down. To those times that were filled with nothing but love and happiness.

I knew I wanted to tell him that I am still deeply in love with him and that I would never stop loving him. Not now, not tomorrow, not even the day that I would die. That I would still love him even in the afterlife. That I would gladly show him that forever does exist.

"Jimin.." I called out once again, breaking the silence between us

"I.. J-jungkook.." he immediately blurted out stuttering and I couldn't help but smile. Atleast I wasn't the only one nervous between us.

"Jungkook.." he said once again and I couldn't help but linger over to the thought of how right it felt whenever he called out to me, whenever he said my name. It's as if my name was something priceless, something precious just because he was the one calling it out.

"I know I did terrible things.. I left you and I am greatly regretting it every moment that passed by. I ignored every confession from you, I didn't show you affection, I never returned your feelings. And I.. you suffered because of me." he said, his voice cracking slightly.

"And you don't know how extremely sorry I am for everything I did, for every pain I had caused you. For leaving you behind.." he continued, "..and I.. I just want you to know that I am done lying to myself. That I am done denying everything thats clearly true.."

I listened to his words, contemplating if I should stop him and tell him my side. Tell him everything I had been wanting to tell him from the beginning. But my mind immediately went blank the moment I saw tears running down his cheeks. I didn't know what happened but I was already holding him, wiping the tears of his face as I muttered words of comfort to him.

"I don't really deserve this.. I don't derserve you.." he sobbed out and I tried to shush him, holding him close to me. I felt his arms clutch the fabric of my clothes and buried his head onto my chest as he continued to cry.

"But.. But I just have to tell you Jungkook.. I just have to let you know.." he said, his word muffled but I could still hear him loud and clear. Especially the moment he muttered those words I had been wanting to hear..

"I love you Jungkook.."

 


 

I slowly walked towards the kitchen, smiling at the humming voice coming from it. This would be my morning from now on, with that thought, I couldn't help but smile even more. I stopped right behind him and  carefully wrapped my arms around his waist, pressing my face onto his back. He chuckled at my childish actions.

"Are you hungry already? This won't take any longer.." he said softly

I shook my head and sighed softly, tightening my grip onto him. "No.. I just wanted to hug you.."

I heard the stove being turned off and a pair of hands took my grip off his waist. He turned around, looking at me with those dark orbs that showed nothing but affection towards me. He wore a soft smile and he reached out for my cheeks, rubbing his thumbs across.

"We've been inseparable since we got back together? You sure you won't get tired of me?" he asked

I vigorously shook my head at his words and somewhat glared at him for even thinking that way. "I would never get tired of you.." I replied

He nodded his head and leaned towards me, placing a kiss onto my temple before placing a soft peck onto my lips. He smiled once again and patted my head.

"I'm glad to hear that then, because I won't be letting you go anytime soon.." he said while he intensely stared at me. "Let me rephrase that.." he continued, "I would never let go of you.."

I nodded and placed a kiss onto his cheek before pushing him lightly. "I know that now.. So go finish up our breakfast, I'm starving.." I said, grinning sheepishly at him

He laughed at me and shook his head, "Alright princess, two servings of bacon and eggs coming up.."

I sat down on a chair and waited for the food to be served. I still couldn't grasp this reality I currently reside in. I never thought we would end up together again. But I'm glad I came back.

Because this is the happiest I had been in my life..

Just right here by Jungkook's side..

 


 

"Can.. Can you repeat that?"

I looked up at the man who currently held me protected in his arms. The man who comforted me even though he shouldn't. I had been the one caused him to suffer, I had been the one that cause him to feel pain that he didn't even deserve.

I was guilty on breaking this man, this precious being, little by little until he couldn't take it anymore.

And yet, here he was, comforting me and hushing me as if I had done nothing wrong. That I was innocent and that he was the one at fault even if both of us knew that it was a complete lie.

"I.." I started off again, "I love you.."

Those words felt so foreign but also felt so right. The way those words rolled off my tongue and the thought that I was telling it towards to Jungkook, only to Jungkook.

And there, he stared at me unbelievingly. As if I had said something I would never had said to him. That look as if he just witnessed a miracle. And I couldn't blame him for reacting like that. I had been clear back then, that I would never believ in love, that I would never love him back.

Now here I am, foolishly muttering those words towards him.

I thought by now he would push me away from him, thinking that he doesn't love me any longer. That he no longer felt those strong feelings he clearly showed me whenever we were together back then. That maybe I was already too late and that he had already found another person. That he was just comforting me because I was once his friend, I was once the person he cherised and loved.

That thought destroyed me on the inside.

Its like everything around me just stopped..

I couldn't breathe, My knees felt weak...

Every second that passed by without him saying nor doing anything tortured me..

Maybe I was right, maybe I no longer had a place on his heart..

 

 

I'm only the past now..

 

 

But everything changed the moment he pulled me closer and hugged me tighter. He burried his face onto my neck and I wrapped my arms back at him, clinging onto him tightly. And there, I felt warmth onto my clothes and the shuddering of his body.

Is he crying?

I pushed him slightly and looked at him. His eyes now red and his kept sniffling like I did earlier when I was the on crying so pathetically in fron of him.

With the my sleeves, I carefully the tears off his cheeks as he stared at me. I smiled softly at him but froze when I heard him speak.

"I love you too Jimin.." he said

I looked at him, astonished at the words I heard from him.

"I never stopped loving you.."

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BpDdududdudu #1
Chapter 4: Ah my sister showed me this fanfiction and I didn't know it was you that wrote it. It's so good author-nim
Xyakori
#2
Chapter 4: Ahhhhh, this is heartbreaking but fortunately this afraid of commitment got kicked the hell out and do I know how serious it can get haha. But I empathize mostly with Jungkook because I have one person like that in my life that whatever they do I can always love them and forgive them, it doesn't matter if the relationship remains platonic, I would do anything. So happy for them in the end, thank you for this story!!
ParkChimChiminie
#3
Chapter 4: Thank you author-nim.
I love this fanfic so much!!!
It's great, it made me really happy. I guess you could say that I just really loved this story. Thank you!!!
MiLijooned #4
Chapter 4: This story made my heart feel so warm , im just so glad I found it <3. Thank you.
PraePanda
#5
Chapter 3: Aaa this is good!
PraePanda
#6
Chapter 2: I'm not crying you're crying this is too beautiful and feelsy
Strawberriful
#7
Whooooaa~
PraePanda
#8
Chapter 1: Wahh, I remember before I got into BTS, ATL was like, my life. This is going to be really good, I can tell! And your grammar is really good, it's better than most of my friends' lol. I hope this story turns out good!