It only took 30 minutes but they were the longest 30 minutes in Hakyeon's life. He finally bowed to the photographer and called the photoshoot to an end. Soon enough, everyone packed their things and headed to their next schedual.

By the time they finished the day's activities, it was already 9 pm. All of the six boys were packed inside the Van with N occupying the front seat near the manager as usual. The others were either sleeping or under their headphones and N was just weakly against his seat, his eyes facing the window ,however, unfocused as his brain was trying to analyze different things at once. Unconsciouly, N released a deep sigh, the deepest one so far gaining the attention on his manager. None of his mates have heard it to be worried but the manager did

"Wow that was a deep one" The manager exclaimed startling Hakeyon a little

"What?" N whispers 

"Are you ok there buddy ? You seemed alittle off today"

N appreciated the manager's worried questions and he automatically looked behind him, to the faces of his beloved members and he wished that those worried tones would come out from them, he wished that he could hear it even once, just one time they would act with love towards him and just one time they would ask him to join them rather than to stay out of their ways and if they would ask if he was ok and just understand how hard it is to keep up with their harsh words. He smiled, faking it, again. He looked back at his manager "I'm fine" he lied "Just tired, today was really a long day for me"

The manager could feel the tension in Hakyeon's voice, the younger sounded really pressed and maybe just too tired than usual

"You know?" The manager suggested "You can go visit your family if you want it