It's been 5 mouths since you've passed away......when he had heard about your death he swore he had as many tears as there where drops of water in the ocean, but now he felt dried up......he couldn't cry anymore.......even if he wanted to he couldn't. 

The members of course tried to cheer him up, but none could replace you. He would mess up in practice constantly dancing the same dances over and over but just imagining that you could be here smiling at him made him sick.......the reason it made him sick was because he couldn't do anything to help you, he was at practice when he heard you died, he had regretted many things.........even tho he felt like he shouldn't have.....he did......he regretted having fights with you, he regretted telling his fans that he didn't have someone he truly loved as much as he loved you, he regretted saying he was to busy for you because it could've been more time spent with you in his arms.

There he was.......just staring at the ceiling......they had a talk show today, it was about their new song 'Fire'.

Jimin had came out of nowhere and sat right next to him. "I'm hot right?" Although Jungkook laughed a little on the inside that little bit of happiness was buried under his sadness of you not being here, but he was also thankful Jimin had tried to be funny and help him out. 

Jimin not seeing anything but the same lifeless expression on his face decided to change the subject. "Our song fire.....don't you think it fits Joni hyung?" He was about to answer his question but their Manger came telling them it was now time for the show to start.

"Hello I am your MC for today! please say hello to your Chinese Fans!" Everything just seemed the same, they always asked the same questions, I mean sure yeah they always did that but his eyes watered just at the thought that you could be behind the cameras out of view supporting him, but he refused to cry on national television and worry his fans. It seems he had drained all sound and noise out of his system just only thoughts of you until his name was called.

"Huh? Yes?"

The Mc smiled and laughed a little "I said I heard you haven't been feeling well with the death of your girlfriend, is this true?" 

The members went quiet knowing it was a touchy subject for him, he was just shocked but didn't show it......how did they know about you, it didn't matter now because everyone knew now and there was no point trying to hide it...the one thing he wanted to do was keep you secret and it was now exposed that you were his........in all honesty he didn't want his fans to know because they'd keep bringing it up trying to cheer him up when it was only going to make him suffer more. With a little hesitation he replied with a quiet "Yes..." the woman looked at him with pity "That's such a shame.......are you ok?"

By then he was pissed off. Was he okay? His girlfriend had just died......the one he had loved very much sure it had been five mouths, and some people could forget people's deaths by then but not the ones they loved, sometimes he thought he was going crazy thinking he was seeing you everywhere. Was he ing alright? he never hit a woman oh but how much he wanted to punch her in the face to ask him a stupid question like that. He surprised himself as a "Yes" came out instead of the most awful word he could think of. Jin and Namjoon being the first to notice his clenching fist tried to change the subject, but it's like the woman was egging it on........he couldn't explain it but it felt like she was making fun of him............ 

"I Pity You......."

I.......

Pity........

You.......

As those words came out he felt nothing but anger, his blood was boiling before anyone could stop him he throw his chair back as he stood up and threw the cards out of her hands to the side looking her in the eyes "I Don't need your ing pity....." and he walked off.......

he couldn't take it anymore he wanted to die he hated himself he hated everything.......as he got back to the dorm, he didn't expect anyone to answer since he had just left everyone. 

He looked on TV and he was already on the news but it had only been 20 minutes, he might lose his job.......it just seemed like everything had started falling apart since you've been gone..........he waited for you to text him.....even tho he already knew you wouldn't, he remembered deleting all the pictures you to had together because it would make him cry more just knowing he could still see you but not touch you or hear your voice but it also hurt him that he wouldn't be able to see you anymore because he had deleted all the pictures........he hated you for leaving him......yeah it was your fault all your fault that he was suffering like this.....all because you made him fall in love with you.....

At that point he felt tears stream down his face, he didn't know why......weren't they all gone he thought......he felt a stab in his heart just looking at your picture on the table, out of anger and sadness he threw your picture to the wall and screamed as loud as he could to where people probably could here him in the states......he just sat there and cried.....

When the members got home......they had seen all the damage done to their dorm but where more worried about jungkook then anything. Jin had told the others to go take a shower and sleep and he would handle him.

Jungkook heard Jins footsteps and wished that he would go away because it was making his head hurt worse........"hey...." He whispered "it will get bet-" 

"How!?"

Jin couldn't say anything..

"Are you going to bring her back?"

He really couldn't say anything.....what was he supposed to say? Move on? You can cry on me? Jungkook was right it wasn't going to bring the one he loved back.

"Think of it this way jungkook........if you move on it will make her happy.....you sitting hear is only making her suffer.....she's suffering more than you right now...she's suffering because she sees you in pain and she can't do anything to help you, she can only hope that you'll be happy again......move on for her.....she'd rather see you move on with someone else then sit here and suffer....then she would be happy..."

All jin could do was leave him alone now.

After everyone had went to sleep, he had actually thought about what jin had said.......and maybe he was right.....maybe if he moved on...you would be happy.....then he would be happy.....he got down on his knees and prayed......."Y/n......I'm doing this for you.....I'll always love you.....be happy....just don't flirt with anyone that looks better than me.....I'm sorry this-this is, goodbye...."

He smiled a bit just imagining you smiling back at him.......he walked to his room. And Jin had just walked out the bathroom. "Hey" he said feeling better. Jin smiled noticing his mood "Feeling better?" He nodded his head then he thought for a second "hey....how do you know so much about girls anyway?" 

He watched jin smirk "I'm an expert when it comes to girls"

Jungkook laughed so hard "ok sure....night" he hadn't laughed in a long time and it felt good, he went in his room and layed down on his bed....from now on he was going to try to Be Happy......

 

 

 

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