CHAPTER 1 : I AM KIM SE JEONG

 

I AM KIM SE JEONG

 

My name is Kim Se Jeong. I am the person that wanted to unite two lovebirds but the thing that I am doing now is staring on the ceiling of my room.  Yes , I am determined to unite Dr.Lee and President Nam but day by day I lose the motivation to do so. The day change so quickly until I don’t realize that what I am trying to do exactly. I have been asking myself, is what I’m doing is right ? Do they are destined to be together ? I won’t be asking myself that, if I didn’t do anything at all but every methods that I wanted to do is very hard like God do not wanted me to do so.

 

            First thing that I do is to find Dr.Lee and President Nam. I am very happy when I found the house that they used to live together but at the end no one was there or staying there. I mean at least people will stay there and know about the owner right ? Then two weeks later I know there are tenants lived there but they only use the house  for sleeping means they are only available on the night. Then , I went there everyday for about 2 months but never once I met the tenants until the security guard won’t let me to go there anymore. So the percentage of ‘ giving up’ is 25% .

 

            The story does not stop there as I went to Dr.Lee’s current hometown but I have to cancel it halfway after I have spent my money there because I found out my classmates passed away because of car accidents. So I will give 30% there and I have 45% motivation left. In order to increase my motivation , I read the letter that Kim Bo Ra gaves me and raise up my motivation to 50%.

 

            This is the one thing that ruin all my motivation was that President Nam is not in South Korea and later I found out he will never come back. So tell me how the hell I can unite them both!!! This is so frustrating and I’m going to cry. Well , frustation and sadness will not bring me anywhere until today,  it was exactly two years after I found out about the letter. Almost 530 days has passed and I’m not doing anything until now. Am I really capable of doing this ? Are ‘ they ‘ really destined for each other ? If the answer is no , was my effort last two years was useless??

 

“Ahjusshi, are the Comic ‘ Letting Go ‘ already released ?” I ask Mr.Kim , the owner of the bookstore. Don’t get me wrong , I’m working but I’m taking off three years break from my father’s company. Yes, it does sounds I am lucky but I’m just treated like other workers it’s just that it happened to be my father company that has vacant for accountant. After my surgery , my father asked me to take a break and I asked him for three years leave and he said yes. I still get money through counseling in accountings. If someone asked me advice , I will teach them. In fact, my father didn’t let me to work because of condition of my heart even though it already cured.

 

“ Oh , Se Jeong shi , yes it is . I already keep it for you” I smile widely as he gaves me the comic. I’m really into it since I love Japanese writer wrote about the love stories. It is about a couple who loves each other but the problem is the guy only seing the girl as the alternative  to replace his ex-lover who is dead. So, in other words, the guy didn’t love her as she is but due to the similarities that she has with his ex-lover. It is so sad to live like that.

 

“Thank you ahjusshi” I paid the money and before I turn around he stopped me.

 

“Yah Se Jeong-ah , do you remember about a guy you have asked me before ?” I frowned upon the question he gaves me. A guy ? Is he ever exist ?

 

“Nam Woo Hyun right ?” I’m shocked when he said his name. I do remember that I asked him about NamWoo Hyun as I’m afraid that he will appear in business magazine so I request him to contact me if he happen to find any information.

 

“ Yes ! Yes !! Yes .. Nam Woo Hyun.. do you find anything ? ” I went to the counter back and look at Mr.Kim with puppy eyes. I can tell our face just 15 cm apart.

 

“ Yah, please calm down” I breathe a little after he hold my shoulders eventually distant our gap.

 

“ Based on few resources, he will come back to Seoul in two weeks”

 

“ Hah?????”  

 

I am supposed to be happy. I am happy but I’m not happy since I do not know what to do if I met him in two weeks. I shouldn’t just go to the company , met him , show the letters , tell him everything right ? I’m sure he’s still mad with Dr.Lee and that’s why he’s gone and did not come back to Seoul for almost two years.   “Argghh ottohke” I rub my hair and massage my head simultaneously. I am 29 years old for God sake but why I’m still like a child ?   “Oh you !!” someone stopped me again and this time I don’t know who he is.   “Yes?Do I know you…”   “Yah! You don’t remember me?I’m the security guard for apartment that you have always been” There is no way he is so handsome like this. Where the hell the plump and chubby Mr.Tak?   “Ah, yes I remember you look a little smaller” I’m lowering my voice when I said ‘ smaller’ because I don’t like a guy who’s being narcissist.   “I’m become more handsome right? Ah, that’s why girls can’t stop staring at me” such a narcissist. I’m honestly prefer the chubby one.   “ What happened to you ? Do you know the tenants who lived in apartment that you have always visit is living there full day right after the last day you come here?”   “ Hahhh?????” what a stupid coincidences. I’m started to curse myself.   Now, my motivation is up to 110% because I think I know what is my next step is !  Kim Se Jeong Fighting!!   PARK EUN WOO

 

I AM PARK EUN WOO

 

My real name on Identity Card is Cha Eun Woo but 10 years ago I changed it myself to ‘Park’ represents the surname of my mother’s side. I am a man that was in his late 20s struggling myself to not fall in love with anybody.Well , the less you care , less chances of you getting involved in any relationship. It is not that I don’t want to get married at all but the thing is I lost faith because of what happened to me and my family. Changing the surnames tells a part of me losing faith about love. So, what should I do now is focusing on something that valuable to me or someone  needs me the most.

 

“ I’m home” I greet them as soon as I open the door and locked in right away. Then, I took of my shoes and put it on the rack. I inhale deeply of the smells of Kimchi Stew that my mother cooked. Honestly, I don’t want my mother to cook and do house chores anymore since she is not in good condition to do so.   “ Oh , hyung”  Hyun Jun runs at me and hug my waist. I smile widely as I realized there’s someone actually welcomed me and not like the place near my workplace.   “ Jun-ah, are you alright?” the first question that I’m always asked him if we met.   “ Yes I am” he smiles.    “ Omo omo my boy has come home” my mother come with me with ladle in her right hand. I hug her tightly because I miss her so much.   “ Aigoo aigoo , Eun Woo-ah , you look skinnier than the last time I met you. Your face also look so pale” she told me and I know exactly what she’s going to say after this. So I enter the kitchen and prepare some food that I bought at Dongdaemun Market.   “ Yah! Get youself a girl ” she knock my head with the ladle she used to cook the kimchi stew.   “ Ouch! Omma!!” I’m immediately stop cutting the kimbap after that.   “Omma what? Yah , I want to see my cute grandchild before I died you got it?”   “Jun is a cute grandchild right ?” I reply back and immediately received second knock from my mother.   “Ouch ! Omma, the ladle are used to cook right ? Why you hit me..” I’m pouting.   “No, it is used to fix your head that scared to fall in love just because of your father and your brother-in-law” my face changes immediately when I heard those person’s name and my mother knows that.   “Then, it is to fix my heart not my head”   “So, you’re going to say I’m stupid? Cannot differentiate between heart and head?”  suddenly I heard someone laughing and it was Jun. I’m also laughing after that and excuse  myself.   “Yah,! Don’t laughing , I’m dead serious..”   “ I want to unpack my shirt… bye ” I get out from the kitchen and shout “ Omma, don’t forget to wash the ladle first.. I didn’t wash my hair for two days”   “You dirty son !! That’s why no one like you!! ”     I’m done with unpacking my clothes and eating dinner so next activity is to pray for my sister.There’s a special room to pray for my sister and my father but I rarely put my heart to pray for my father because I hate him. Just thinking about it make me mad. Then I lit the incense sticks, kneel three times and put the incense sticks in front of the statue.   " Noona " I smile hardly and gulp " how are you there ? Do you live happily there ? " I asked my 'silent' sister.   " Ah , of course you live happily there since it was a good place to stay" it has always been like that to ask her question and I answer it back. That's because I don't have anything proud to say to her so I asked her question even though she won't answer it. My big sister, has been always the best person in my life. I can describe myself have sister complex. It was because I'm always clinging to her and be with her even though she rejected me a lot of time. My friends always tease me and I don't care much.   " Noona... I'm sorry.." I burst into tears after think about what had happened after she left me. As this room is specially made to pray for my sister, so my mother and Jun would not seeing me like this and in fact I don't want they to see this weak side of me.   " I'm sorry for just bring misfortune to our family... I'm sorry because I failed to take care of mother and your son " I cupped my face while crying. Incident that happened last two weeks has fall me apart and today I have make the biggest decision in my life. My sister's death last eight years has enough killing me inside and now I have to bear with mother and Jun's diseases. Just because I wanted recognition and money I'm almost kill my nephew. What kind of human I am ???   " I.. I... I'm such a fool!!!"   " Which fool crying out loud just because he's trying to protect his loved ones huh ? " I can't turn around when I heard her voices. It is so shameful to show this side of me so I wipe the tears with my hands.   " Don't think by wiping your tears will chase away your sadness Eun Woo-ah " why she always has very good words to say to me. I can feel her presence as she slowly approached me from the back.   " Eun woo-ah look at me " I turned around slowly and faced her without making eyes contact.   " Rest here" she point her laps and I reject it right away.   " Omma.. I'm not .."   " You're still my son.. rest here" I followed her request and surprisingly it was comfortable. My mother play with my hair and suddenly talked.   " If you still fell sorry about what happened to Jun last few weeks, you  should feel sorry because it is your fault. However, it cannot be the reason you stop writing , you got what I mean ? " she told me but I think the advice is too late because   " I already quit... to become a writer" that was the biggest decision that I make but I didn't tell her that. I have always wanted to become an established writer so that I can continue and publish the story that my sister wrote about us. She always said our life is like a drama and that's why she is into writing. Instead, I tell her.   " I got it, omma" I told her that I got few days leaves as actually I’m going to stay here forever.   " Good boy " she told me that. I'm always like her to compliment me like ' you have done well ' or ' I'm proud of you ' . I would say that she knows what I want to hear from her.   " Tell me anything you wanted to say Eun Woo-ah " I closed my eyes and let tears flowing on my face. I kept thinking about should I tell her about this? If I tell her about this, it will cause burden to her even more. However, if I didn't tell her this my heart feels really heavy. So,   " Omma.."   " Oorghhhh , orrgghhhkk "   " Omma ! " I sit up right away after heard she's coughing.   " Are you okay? Have you take medicine? " I asked her but she pat me while coughing and said..   " I'm okay. Don't worry about me" she replied with hoarse voice.   " How can I am not worried watching you like this? Omma, let's go to hospital" I try to lift her but my stubborn mother stop me.   " Cha Eun Woo, I'm alright. I don't want to see your sister and father yet. It is just that I need to rest " I dumbfounded when she said that. I don’t want her to leave too.   " Are you sure? "   " Yes, bring me to my room" I'm also doesn't want you to leave me alone with Jun. If you really want to leave, wait until I become a strong man that can protect anybody that I loved as well as fulfill my sister's wish.   Flashback   " Noona, what are you writing ? " I sit beside her on the bed.   " Hmmm , our stories" she said.   " Our stories ? "   " You will know later " I sigh because she is secretive person. So, I throw her another question.
  " Since when you are into this? Why ?" I asked her.   " Hmmm .. I'm not sure" I sigh again as she always failed to answer my question.   " Is this related to become a magician ? " my sister is not doing any magic but she always brag about being a magician. That's why she took medical course so that she can do magic and saves people. But, it is not going to happen anymore as she quit studying and get married.   " Oh , how do you know? " I'm shocked to look at her response since I'm just guessing.   " Rather than being a doctor that saves people's life, I want to become a writer that can inspire a reader's life " sound easy but it's going to be tough though.   " How you will do that? " I asked her with curiosity.   " Hmm.. I don't know. Rather than write fiction stories isn't better to write a story based on true event ? At least, people will take some values from it and it real though" she said but I don't care so much. Before I left here, she said something that hold me back until today.   " If something happen to me, can you continue our stories? I would be very happy if you do that " Honestly, I didn't expect she left me too soon and I believed she told me that because she knew she's going to die.   End of flashback   " Happy? " I smile to myself when I utter the word ‘ happy’ .   Ring Ring Ring Ring   It's Myung Jun hyung.   " Hello "   " Yah , big head . Where are you ? " he asked me. ! I forgot to tell him about me staying at my mom's because I’m rushing this evening.   " At mom's" he dislikes when someone didn't tell him about something important earlier.   " What ? Tell me again you idiot ! "   " Stop calling me idiot ! I'm sorry.. I forgot " this is all because of spoiled brat named Byung Ho !! I swear if I met him again I will kick his .   " Forgot ? It's not like you at all .. Fine ! But don't forget about tomorrow. We have to meet the landlord okay? Bye "   " Wait.. Hyung.." Damn it ! I forgot about it. What should I do ? Songcho is quite far away so I should leave by now or I'm not making it tomorrow on 8 AM. Argghh I feel like going crazy !! I'm just started to lay on my favorite bed and I have to go to that apartment back. So, I  just took my bag and leave.   " Omma , Jun.. I'll be right back . Have something important to do " I leave the note on the refrigerator after kiss my mom and Jun.   I don't know why but I feel tomorrow will be a long day.   NAM WOO HYUN   I AM NAM WOO HYUN   Anyone would be glad if they are appointed as CEO for an organization but not me. At first, I’m supposed to be a director but I reject the offer to become CEO instead. 31 years old man named Nam Woo Hyun who has been staying for 2 years in Japan just for the sake of gaining work experience so that he can be prepared to be a CEO is actually cannot remember anything from the past but only the present. So, that is what holding me back because I can’t remember anything which means I cannot remember what I am or what I’m used to be. That is why