Torture. In one word, he could describe it as many things, but one always seemed to stand out. 

Hell. He was in and beyond hell. He knew that. If hell was getting beaten daily, eating drugged food, and memory loss, then he knew he was well past home.

That wasn't all he was thinking about. His mind kept going to D.O's words, telling him to give up; that it's only a matter of time.

"It's only a matter of time before I break you."

He's right, you know. A voice made its way inside his mind in his moment of weakness. You are going to break sooner or later. You might as well give up before you're beyond recognition.

Kai frowned, wincing as he tried to stand, only to fail as pain raced up his leg. The terrible knife wound had effected his walking greatly. Even though they actually had the curtsey to stich it up, he couldn't stand or he would reopen the stitches, an experience he didn't want to repeat.

He was lucky; none of his other wounds were bleeding, even if they hurt like the ers they are when the rain hit them.

Water, salt and alcohol. A healing wounds worst enemy, He tought. always making the victim hurt. Maybe that's why they made me able to see outside; more pain for the prisoner.

Kai stopped thinking about stuff that wouldn't help him and focused on something he had to decide.

So, I can endure pain beyond anything I can imagine, - though, I think I can now that I'm here - or I can give in and go with their plans. Arrgh...I'm not going to betray my team, nor do I want to go through more of this pain...Why do things have to be so...Wait a second. A thought so brilliant hit his mind, and Kai actually grinned. What if I make another me, like, make a mask so I appear dead, but on the inside I'm actually myself? He nodded to himself. It sounds like the only good idea to escape, but...They're a lot of things that could go wrong.

 

So, one thing could be them putting me in a position where I wouldn't be able to do it, like killing Frost or one of the Sentinels.

I could get found after I escape - something I really, really don't want to happen - or get hurt while trying to do that...none sound too appealing.

I could get consumed by my fake identity and have it blend into the other, making me someonelike I once was, but not completely the same.

Or, I could stay put until he actually breaks me and makes me his slave. That I would hate to become.

Kai nodded to himself.

Well, I guess that's settled then. But I'm going to have to go slow with this. Every day, I will slowly make myself a little darker until finally D.O fineds me as ready to fight for him. Who knows, if this works I might get some Intel on where the others are. But this will be slow and will make me lose more memories...Kai winced, already knowing what that was like. But it's a risk I'm willing to take to ensure reuniting with my brother...

Even if I lose myself in the process.

Kim Jongin - Kai
-Time Passed: Unknown-

Kai had pushed himself up against the wall, sending insults at the torturer in front of him. "Get the fck away from me you motherfcker"

Hostile; appear hostile.

It seemed to be working, making the black man with light brown hair back off. "You never told me he was this bad, Rat." The man muttered, Kai hearing his words.

Rat, the other torturers name is Rat. The man wouldn't know how great that was for him to hear. He wanted to kill these b*tches when he got out, and oh, now the crazy man wouldn't be able to get away from him. Heh, that guy is so dead when I get to him.

The man must have heard something into the com for he started to come closer.

Hostile; go hostile.

" off you son of a b*tch! You're not going to touch me this time!" He hissed at the man, making him stop in his tracks.

"Err...I think I'm going to need help here." The man waited, Kai still shouting all the insults he could think of before scooping up his drugged food and chucking them at him, one getting him in the eye. "Fck! Please, be quick with that backup!"

The man had a right to be scared, The last time he brought backup, He broke one of their arms. He had a gun to his head, but he decided being reckless would let the time go better. Even though it cost him in the torture, he felt like he had been one more step towards his goal.

The afternoon sun cast a shadow that took most of the pit with it, only leaving east side of the pit in the orange glow of the sun. He took the information with open arms, konwing that even if it wasn't great information, he would take it nonetheless.

The backup arrived swiftly. holding their AKs like their life depended on it.

Kai grinned. Heh, looksl ike I've scared the sh*t out of them. It's only a matter of time. " off, dickheads, or I'll break your arms." That made them freeze, and Kai's grin widened.

The idiots. They have the upper hand in this. If I had a decently smart guard, I would be shot already and on my way to torture - most like a beating. It was true, interrogations had been getting scarer and scarer as time went on, obviously not wanting to stir up any memories that might lay dormant - basically most of them, in Kai's eyes. He couldn't remember which side he's on, if he has family, and if he was P.O.W or these guys were trying to brainwash him. At least he still knew his first name, even if the second had been covered in dust.

But the image of his father's death still lay fresh in his mind, and even if he didn't recognize the man in the chair next to him, he knew he couldn't trust the man who had taken his life.

He went back to tormenting and threatening them with threats he actually could do if he got close enough. It worked, making them ask stuff into their earpiece that he couldn't hear over his yelling and carrying on.

Next thing he knew, the door was open and in came the man who he hated more than anyone in the world.

D.O, the man that killed his father and was trying to destroy his life. He stood next to the guards, taking the gun of the nearest one.

His fake personality dropped a bit. Sh*t, he's a smart one. He's going to do something here that'll hurt me. Then he put up the mask and kept up with insults and threats he knew he couldn't keep now D.O was there. I know I'm screwed right now, but I'm not going to let them realize I'm faking it.

Even if he'd held the personality for a while, slowly making it worse as the days went on, he couldn't stop it now.

If he did, they would know he's a very good actor. Something he thanked his Drama teacher for.

"Stay back you ers, or I'll make you regret it!" He yelled. "I'll break your legs and make you wish you were never born!"

D.O actually smiled, pointing the gun away from him.

"Ok then, Kai. I'll leave you alone if you can answer one question. Which side are you on?" It was a question even he wasn't, sure of and he felt himself falter.

Kai thought long and hard, not missing a beat when one of the guards took a step forward. He sent a death glare, certain he had made the guy sh*t himself.

I know I'm not on this side; if I was, I wouldn't be getting tortured for information, hell, tortured at all. I don't know the other side of the war, what their name is I probably had known. But if I helped them? No clue. But if this man killed my dad, then I'm certain he was on the opposing side. I just need to figure out if I'm on their side, or both. God, why did they have to do this to me?

Kai went with the only answer he could give.

"I don't know." It was so truthful that it shut his anger down, making him look like he had lost apart if himself. "I don't know a lot of things."

D.O looked hopeful for a second before cutting it off, putting on a blank face like Kai had done a second before. "What things?" He pressed, treading lightly.

"Full name, family...if I'm even on a team...what I'm even doing here...God...Almost everything." He said truthfully, trying to get him on his side.

He knew he was giving up valuable information, but he could feel how close he was.

And he wasn't going to back down.

"What do you remember?" D.O asked, actually looking curious.

Kai almost laughed. Oh, just you killing my dad. You know, nothing serious.

"Nothing useful. Just bits and pieces of places I don't recognize or even understand." He half lied, telling some truth but leaving some out.

D.O smirked.

"Do you know what you are?"

Kai knew what he was, but he couldn't help but notice he had gone three questions over the limit. I'm a soldier, and I know I'm a damn good one at that.

"I'm a soldier," he stared right into D.O's gaze. "And probably a darn good one if you're looking at me like that."

D.O grinned, placing the gun on his back and walking over to him, holding out a hand.

Kai took his hand, getting to his feet and was soon shaking his hand.

"Welcome to the team, Kai." D.O whispered into his ear, and he could only think one thing as he stared into his eyes.

Over my dead body.

Kim Jongin - Kai
-Time Passed: One Month-

"Kai, D.O wants to see you in his office in five minutes. You know how he gets if you don't get there on time." A guard yelled into his room before his footsteps left the hall.

Kai sighed. It had been the fourth time this week D.O had wanted him in his office, and it was really starting to annoy him. Even though he keep saying about his final thest coming up, he couldn't help but feel uneasy about the whole thing.

Despite his feelings, Kai found he had gotten into his fake personality fine. He was grumpy, didn't talk to anyone and tried to stay in a room alone. He didn't have any friends, nor did he want any. If they found out his secret, they would spill and he would be right back where he started.

Over the month, he had been going the usual Empire routine, including training every day, for him learaning more about the Sentinels, and doing check-ups on the border to the huge facility. It wasn't boring, but he found it to be little too...dul for his liking.

Kai got up from his bed in his plain room, only consisting of a desk, drawer and bed, before exiting his room, locking the door behind him. 

The reason for that was for one thing: his almost ruined his uniform. He didn't know if it was a normal military uniform or the Sentinels, but the one thing he did know was that he was supposed to have burnt it, and just keeping it would compromise his mission. But...there was something about it that made him feel...attached to it somehow, like it was a part of his soul. He didn't know why, but he did know that when he had gone to burn it, he hadn't been able to do it.

And now it was hiding in the back of his drawer, hiding underneath all of the standard Empire uniform.

Really, it was the only place where it wouldn't get discovered.

Kai walked down the halls, mostly understanding the facility and where to go now he had been there for a month. He passed many soldiers, to which he made no effort into greeting or even acknowledging them.

Soon, he was the Boss's door and he knocked swiftly, checking his watch.

Right on time. He thought as he heard a "come in!" from the inside.

Kai entered the office, and was surprised at what he saw.

Instead of the usual office, which consisted of a computer and two unoccupied chairs on the otherside, he was met with the desk at the corner of the room with one chair supporting an injured man tied to it with the other holding D.O, who glanced at him before turing back to the man.

"This is one of the men we are up against. A Sentinel. These are the people I'm going to kill, the people I will exterminate before I take the world. Kai, this is Yixing or Lay, Leader of the Sentinels and your final test." At his look, D.O elaborated further. "The man you're going to kill."