Henrys POV

Its been a 2 weeks know that me and amber didnt speak to each other I Silently go to school school my head bowed and with a gloomy face

" Hi henry How arew you?" one a girl said to me but I just walked passed here not replying

"dude are all you look awful today" said daniel I didnt say anything to him I just kept silent

then amber passed by we suddenly looked eye to eye

it was strange before she was smiling but when we sow each other she seemed to be sad and gloomy and she bowed her head and then she walked fast with her friends

"wait amber why are you in a hurry" one of her friend shouted

"dude whats wrong with amber ?? its been a 2week know that you didnt talk to each other.. did something happen between you and her??" daniel questioned me and confuse

I kept silent and Just walked away I didnt know what to do i cant turn back time to chnge it

I was really stupid for doing it.... she is the only person that can understand me she was my bestfriend that I can rely on but know because of this stupid heart I cant stop my feelings for her

I wanted to be more then bestfriends I wanted to be lovers

at first I thought I didnt have feelings for her but when I saw her and jonghyun being close to each other it seems something inside of me was furious and wanted to get amber for myself but I didnt cared about it I just let it go but when we where left alone my heart starting to beat faster that I cant stop it from beating then I realized that I began to have feelings for her

Our laughs, cries, our funny moments and our closeness was the best thing I ever felt but I didnt know when It all started 

this feeling of mine I wanted to be with her holding her hands, I wanted to hug her, kiss her passionately and mostly I wanted her to be with me until the end of our lives its sounds dramatic you think for A guy like me but think of her as my life already but its over know I cant  even talk to her or go near her if I go near she will run away from me

I was in the rooftop of our school I skip all my classes and just here

"HENRY YOU STUPID WHY DID YOU FEEL FOR HER" I shouted and suddenly tears went down on my cheeks 

"why did I feel for her" I said to myself while my tears where rushing down my cheeks

you may think Im weak for a guy but this is the first time I feel for a girl that who is close to my heart I just play with girls for fun but this time is different... really different

then I heared foot steps I looked I turned our and it was amber 

I was to see her and I didnt realize I suddenly hug her tightly

"Henry can you let go of me" she said sweetly 

"Im really sorry amber for happen I know I was so stupid to kiss you and I want to be friends again can we forget what happen please" I lied to her that I wanted to be friends with her but I wanted more than that

" Uhmm henry Im sorry if I was avoiding you Im just confuse but I just wanted to tell you that Im going back to America tomorrow... I just wanted to tell you so thats all" she said with a sad tone after telling me this she walked away but I grab her wrist and let her face me

" what?? why are going back to america?? beacuse of what I happened to us??" I was furious

"no henry It was planned a long time ago before that happen I was planning to tell you before but that happened.... I was confuse henry when you kissed me I started to like you and I wanted to be with you but..." she said to me suddenly I saw a tear drops on her cheeks she continued " I cant stay here with you thats why I was avoiding you I didnt want this feeling to bloom because I know that this wont last because I was moving back to america" she said with a craking tone because she was crying I hug her tightly and but my face on her shoulder and ask her " why do you need to go back to america?" my voice was craking " I need to because my parents want me there with them and I want to be with them please understand henry"

she sunddenly hug me and I hug her tightly then I put my hand on her face and I kissed her she didnt rufuse she kissed me back our kiss was not sweet but our kiss was full of sadness we released from our kiss

"I Love you amber" I told her " I love you to henry but we cant be together" she told me and she kissed me but only a peck and she run away I felt in someone stab my heart with A million knifes that I cant even bear to stop the pain

I was left in the rooftop I cried harder and look at the sky that was blurry because of my tears " I hope you will be happy with out me amber... I need to stop this feeling for you amber and I need to forget you"

I told myself even it really hurts but I need to do it.. ______________________________________________________________________________

so there you guys have it I updated again hahahaha XD its been a long time hahahaha XD I was very busy at school and didnt have time to update my fanfic and I always forget to update even though I have free time hehehe mianhe but I will try to update tomorrow i think but dont worry know im working on chapter 5 already

Thats all pyong