I'm trying to run away...

But he held my hands with his pale skin. He used to have a golden-silver complexion until this... 

                       "I'm not making you ran away. Stay."

We could hurt more if we go on like this. I want to love you more and more but this would cause you your everything.

                       "Let me go!  You're not making this easier for the both of us. I told you already. I'm not..."

                       "You're not in love with me. I don't believe you. Why would you even bother going here in the first place?"

Why did I even bother? I am only hurting myself... much worst, I am hurting him.

He slowly let go of my hand. My heart is stricken with pain because of this. This is my chance... my chance to run away. I have to go back to my old life. My silent world where I don't have to face life's suffering.

I have to grow up. As I hold back the tears, I looked at him trying to make myself look fiercer. I saw his crying eyes... it was like pleading me not to go. Oh how I loved this man for a long time. But I should go now.

I turned my back against him and walked in an increasing pace. With tears streaming in my eyes, I wonder when can I ever see him again....
 

A/N: This one's actually Thought 1. The series of thoughts actually started with this blog entry and then a good friend of mine told me that I should continue writing them And BTW, this has a title/OST... It's Lies (ballad version) by T-Ara