They say that the eyes are the windows to a person's soul.

And every single day, I look into your hazel eyes and always feel lost in it. Though, it's wrong to feel this way, but I can't fight it...

 

This is a beautiful lie
My last lie
Even if it hurts to death
I am hiding myself under a mask for you

 

I don't have a place in your world.My purpose is to just look out for you, keep you safe and alive.. To watch you from afar, making sure you won't think of taking your life again.. To be safe and sound at the end of the day.

You don't know that I exist. Then one day you suddenly looked at me straight in the eyes, and that's when I knew that you can clearly see me now...

We became friends and we were so happy. It also made me more relieved because I got closer to you and I can watch you more closely. You're not alone anymore because you have me now.

But time goes by and I needed to go back up there. They said you're safe now and you don't need me anymore.

 

I see myself in the mirror and I ask myself
Will it really make you happy if I let you go?

 

It breaks my heart and I don't know if I should follow it or listen to my mind. But my existence in your world is not permanent. We are not meant for each other. You are human, I am a guardian. And I am ordered to leave anytime soon..

I try to confront you. But you didn't understand.
I couldn't risk revealing to you who I am, because it could mean danger to you once you found out. That's the consequence.. And I wouldn't want that.

 

I'll throw myself away completely because you need quiet time to yourself

 

Saying goodbye is the hardest thing that I've ever done in my existence. I didn't have the courage at first but I needed to.

"I'm leaving. I don't want to have anything to do with you anymore. I don't want to see you ever again," I said.

But that's a lie...

 

Did I say those things without even meaning it?
As I replay your face when you screamed go away

 

I know you are mad, but I hope you'll know that this is for your own sake. I want you to live the happy life that you deserve and just forget about me.

 

I'm tainting our memories that were beautiful
I haven't imagined a life without you yet but please be happy
So that at least my lie can shine

 

I was starting to regret that moment when I miraculously became visible in front of your eyes.. I sometimes wish that you didn't lay your eyes on me so that we won't have a hard time saying goodbye.

 

I'm letting go of your tightly held hands
But my heart is still the same
But I'll let you go

I'm letting go of your hands
But my heart is still the same
I think it's best for you if I end it right here

 

I try to spread my wings but it didn't appear. My powers are completely gone and I am now a mortal like you. I was so happy that I quickly ran back to find you...To tell you the truth about my feelings.

I saw you at the other side of the road. When I called out your name, you turn your head and ran towards me in joy. Then that's when I saw the danger coming near you... I ran towards you to shield you from the crash and shoved you out of the way. And then there was only light I see..

 

You keep shedding tears in front of me
It was an unexpected line that led to the next chapter
You told me to take back the words I spit out
As you hold onto my face
Then you collapsed off your feet
This isn't the future I thought of
It seemed like a sin to look at you like a lonely tied up dog
So I'm swallowing up my feelings and letting you go
You must live better than me, promise me
But the moment I said that, you turned around

 

Sorry to keep your hopes up... I said goodbye to you, then ran back to you, and then now... I think I just have to say goodbye once again, but for the last time...

 

I won't hang onto you, I will smile
This is me, don't hesitate anymore
Leave me

It's time for me to give you
The last bits of my heart
The fact that we loved is beautiful

 

"You're safe now.. I guess I won't be your guardian angel anymore.." I finally said as I held your cheek, wiping the tears from your eyes.

 

Me with iron shackles on my legs
Is more like me than ever before
(You turned around, ran to me
Told me not to say stupid lies
As you smiled in front of me)

It's a beautiful pain
Letting you go
I have to kill myself inside
Swallow my tears
And put on a smiling mask

I feel so relieved now
Please don't worry about me
Oh I'm
I'm a beautiful
No, a cowardly liar

 

Then I gave you the sweetest smile that I could've ever give you... and your smile, your hazel eyes are the last beautiful things that I ever saw in my whole life...

I'm sorry... and I love you.