Days went like that, Jongin was officially a member of my group along with his friends that were Minseok And Jongdae but they liked to be called ‘Chen’ and ‘Xiumin’ they were dating and we gave them the couple name of Xuichen just like Baek and Chan were ‘Baekyeol’ Jongin insisted and they call us ‘Kaisoo’ since he is known as Kai in the dance team I always glare at him since we aren't dating 
“You should just accept him you know” said Chanyeol 
“Yeah, I mean you have go out for dinner and what not” said Baekhyun
“It's just hanging out and it was long ago, he seems to busy to even spare me a text” I said stubbornly 
“Hyung!” I heard behind me I turned around just in time to hug Jongin back he kept rubbing his cheek on my hair I smiled
“It's been a while since we last see you Jongin” said Chanyeol 
“Well I-”
“Oppa!” Soon Jongin let me go and hugged a girl I know her Krystal Jung 
“Hey there little one” he said messing with her hair I turned around to face Chanyeol and Baekhyun and glare at the floor they smiled apogelicaly at me
“Don't forget to help me out today too” she said
“Didn't you said you had dance practice today?” I asked
“It's okay, I will just come on Saturday, Krystal needs me” he said smiling at her
“Why? Are you jealous Kyungsoo Oppa?” She asked teasingly joking and something in me snapped
“Why would I? I don't even like Jongin that way. You can have him for all I care but the Talent show is near and I don't want him screwing it up for all the classmates that do try to practice” I said coldly 
what the heck am I even saying?, why am I saying this?
“Kyungsoo” both Chanyeol and Baekhyun exclaimed at the same time, Krystal had her eyes wide and hung open in shock, Jongin was looking downwards
“What? I only said the true, better yet why don't you guys just go and each-” a slap cut me off Chanyeol, Baekhyun and Krystal gasped I turned to Jongin eyes wide open now that shook me up
“Jongin I-”
“Save it” he hissed then he glanced up his eyes were filled with tears some of them running down his cheeks already
“I get it okay? You don't like me the way I do, I get it but there was no need to say all of that right? I'm sorry my feelings for you are a bother to you, I'm sorry for falling in love with you” he rubbed his eyes furiously before looking straight at my eyes

“I'm sorry for loving you” he said and took off

“You are such a jerk! How could you say that to Jongin? He loves you for sakes” screamed Krystal at me angrily, and the she took off alter Jongin 
“” I said, soon Baek was at my side I saw Chanyeol going after Jongin too
“Let's sit down Kyungsoo, we need to talk” said Baek I let him drag me to a empty classroom 
“Why did you say all of that?” He asked
“I-I don't know it's just the way she said it just.. I don't know something snapped at boom! I heard myself saying that!” I said almost hyperventilating 
“Soo calm down okay?” He said but it was no use I was having a panic attack I stumbled out of the classroom running I don't even know where the heck I'm going I just need to run I heard Baek calling after me, I think he is chasing me I feel my body shaking I couldn’t breath but I couldn't  stop I don't know what is wrong
“Chanyeol!, stop Kyungsoo! Stop him!” I heard Baek scream I looked ahead and indeed Chanyeol was a few meters away from me he turned and his eyes widened when he saw me
“Move out! I can't stop!” I struggled to say but he just opened his arms wide I run rounding him but a pair of arms got me and I was in someone's chest I don't even knew why but I started to cry I cried like there was no tomorrow in the strangers chest my knees gave up and the person caught me I feel this person crying too I don't know why I was crying this much I closed my eyes tight Jongin was the last thing that crossed my mind as I recognized the stranger

A flashback
Little Kyungsoo of only 12 years old was happily eating his lunch when a boy sat in front of him, he couldn't see his face clearly it was kind of blurry 
“Hey! My name is Myungsoo do you want to be my friend?” The boy asked and I nodded smiling at him

Now it was different scenery 
Myungsoo kissed Soo’s cheek and Kyungsoo blushed
“W-why did you do that?” Asked Soo
“Because I like you very much, do you want to be mine?” Asked Myungsoo and Soo nodded, he liked Kyungsoo a lot and he felt his heart flutter everytime Myungsoo was around him, so he kissed Myungsoo’s cheek too they both were blushing

It changed again
“Me?, why would I like a boy with such big eyes? It's creepy he is the one who never leaves me alone” said Myungsoo, Kyungsoo felt his heart shattered and he run all the way home and closed his door and didn't came out for 2 days straight crying his eyes out pleading to God to make him forget about Myungsoo

He came out the third day without remembering what happen in the last 3 days his parents were worried but the doctors said that he had a small trauma that he suffered from huge pain and that his brain forced himself to forget the previews events the next day Kyungsoo came home happily saying he had two new friends Baekhyun and Chanyeol

Kyungsoo woke up but closed his eyes at the white light, then he realized he was in the hospital
“But wha-” he started to cough and a glass of water appeared at his side he took it and drinker in a flash he turned at his mom
“Mom-”
“I see you woke up” the doctor entered the room
“What happened?” I asked confused
“You had a panic attack, but I believe you are okay but for checking do you know this people?” He said and Baekhyun and Chanyeol entered the room loo