"Go on a date with me?" he asks shyly, and Changkyun chokes on his spit.

“Hyung, I…” changkyun begins, rubbing his nape and looking at the floor while trying to come up with a response. His thoughts are racing a million miles an hour, should I say yes? But that would be wrong. Wait.  Does me thinking i should say yes mean i want to say yes? But Wonho is- “ahem” Kihyun clears his throat and says “ not like a romantic date or anything.  More like a friendly date? You've been cooped up here in the dorm for 3 months now, it might do you good to get out, breathe in some fresh air”

Changkyun smiles at his hyung, always looking out for him, noticing all the little things someone else should notice. “you'll treat me to lunch and dinner?” he asks kihyun, flurtering his eyelids trying to look en
dearing. Kihyun laughs at the maknae’s actions , he stands and ruffles the younger’s hair “of course, it's a date after all” he smirks and exits the room.

Changkyun stuffs a kimbap in his mouth while contemplating things. It's been months since I've gone out on a date. Since when did we stop going out? Since when did he stop asking about me? Since when did he stop looking at me? Changkyun sighs, he knows he has to talk to him soon, but he doesn't want to.  He knows,  deep down that it wont end well, he knows that when they talk it'll all be over, and he's not ready. He'll never be ready.

They soon leave the dorm, heading to a remote set to film their music video. The day was tiring but fun, they had to run back and forth through the smoke filled alley, they had to eat some blue flowers and by the time the sun had set, they only had one more scene to film. As they walked towards the greenhouse, the director said “ guys the last scene is simple,just sit together in a circle and jooheon will perform a ritual for the blue potion. Sit with whoever you're most comfortable with and just go with the flow of the music, ok?” they all nod and soon they reach the set.

Changkyun stayed back and waited until everyone was seated, Kihyun called him over to sit with him but all the while his gaze was fixed on someone else. Someone who didn't call him, someone who was animatedly talking to a gorgeous specimen of a human being named Hyungwon. Changkyun was so out of it,  he was startled when the director yelled action. He stared at the candles in the middle, wondering what he was doing at the moment,  but then he felt a hand grab his neck and the next thing he knows his face is drawing closer to Kihyun’s until their foreheads touch.  He closed his eyes and smiled, Kihyun always seems to pull him out from his thoughts, it felt nice.

…………………

“what was that about?”

Changkyun was cornered against the kitchen sink, Wonho’s arms pinning him in place.  Changkyun looks at Wonho, his face clueless as to why he's suddenly being questioned. “what was what about, hyung?” he asks, it has been months since they've been this close to each other.

“you and Kihyun” Wonho stated pointedly, but when Changkyun still has that puzzled look, he adds “during the filming at the greenhouse,  you two looked like you wanted to make out”

“that's not it hyung, i didn't even know what happened” he explains “ besides, he called out to me to sit with him, while you…” he stops abruptly, biting his lips, this will definitely lead into a bigger fight.

“while I what?!” Wonho half shouts and half growls, he stares at the younger intently, “while you dote on Hyungwon-hyung” changkyun whispers, he shuts his eyes shut, anticipating the barrage of shouts about to come his way, but what comes next is silence.

Slowly, he lifts his eyes looking at his lover's face. The look of guilt, hurt and something akin to anger etched on Wonho’s face; and that's all he needs to realize it was long over between them. When the one Wonho reached out and called for wasn't him, when the one Wonho's eyes followed wasn't him. He stares up at the ceiling, trying to hold back the tears threatening to fall from his eyes. He pushes away the hands pinning him against the sink, those very same hands that held his own, the same ones who caressed his face earlier that morning.

Wonho tries to reach for Changkyun, but he couldn't.  How could he hold on to the younger when it's clear that he's fallen out of love with Changkyun?  And so, he just stands there in the middle of the kitchen, tears falling freely, knowing he'd just lost an important person.