Sungmin knew it wasn't going to be easy, especially when he really fell in love with someone who not supposed to be his. Married someone who didn't have a space for him in his heart was extremely hurtful Sungmin had been trying to endure it, smiling despite the pain, tried his best to be a good spouse despite cold treatment from his partner. If it wasn't because of their parents Sungmin would never married someone who already gave his heart to someone else. And that night proves no lie about how hurt Sungmin was because of his spouse.

"How was your day?" Sungmin tried to open up the conversation when Kyuhyun just reached their home

"Busy as usual" Kyuhyun didn't even spare Sungmin a glance but after nearly half of a year receiving the same treatment Sungmin nearly up get used to it even though it was still painful for him 'don't you want to ask how about mine?' Sungmin thought bitterly but shrugged off the thought

"You must be tired, want to eat first? I cook your favorite food for you" Sungmin didn't even bother to wait for Kyuhyun's answer, he knew the latter would just go straight to their dining room and eat, it's not like Sungmin didn't know about that he simply just wanted to open up conversation with Kyuhyun because Sungmin believed that one day Kyuhyun would open his heart to him and forget about his past lover who left him for someone else before Kyuhyun and Sungmin's parents decided the business marriage between them

Quiet, as usual Sungmin opened up the conversation on the table but Kyuhyun wouldn't even bother to reply, just a few words and the remaining of the night would spend quietly. that night, the warm soup felt cold, the warm room felt empty, it was like Sungmin was eating alone despite Kyuhyun sitting right in front of him. He nearly dropped his tears feeling miserable from his situation right now, if Kyuhyun didn't want this marriage shouldn't he just divorced him after this 6 months? Why he hurt Sungmin everyday even though Sungmin had done his best most of the time? Enough, Sungmin had had enough. He put down his spoon quietly and watched Kyuhyun who was still eating his food without saying anything

"You know what kyu? Let's end this" Sungmin wanted to sounds brave but his voice was trembling, Kyuhyun finally looked up and frown at him

"What do you mean?" Kyuhyun asked

"It's been 6 months and sometimes miracle just don't happen. I've tried my best to smile despite all your treatment to me, to be honest Kyu, this whole situation is unfair and...." Sungmin took a deep breath before he continued the last words "and... I'm not the one who left you for another guy... I... I'm not your past lover, I'm not her" Sungmin nearly cried when suddenly Kyuhyun threw up his spoon

"I told you don't ever talk about her in front of me!" Kyuhyun shouted

"BUT YOU STILL LOVE HER AND YOU TREAT ME LIKE AS IF IM THE ONE WHO LEFT YOU NOT HER!" Sungmin finally exploded, he couldn't just receiving this kind of treatment with open heart anymore, 6 months despite all the cold treatments Kyuhyun gave him eventually Sungmin secretly had been loving Kyuhyun but he just couldn't take it anymore, all the pain despite the love he had for Kyuhyun was too much. After that the silent felt so heavy in the room “say something” Sungmin challenged Kyuhyun but the latter remained silent “I guess it just doesn’t work at all. I feel like living with a rock and I’m done with this ” Sungmin stood up ready to pack up his clothes before Kyuhyun finally opened his mouth

“Do you know how it feels to be betrayed by someone whom you thought was your world? Was your everything?” Sungmin met Kyuhyun’s eyes and after 6 months living together for the first time he saw Kyuhyun’s eyes filled with tears and hurt when usually it was cold and soulless “I won’t forget that day, 1^st January 2016, I was going to propose to her, I have prepared everything and in one moment everything changed, I don’t know if I was lucky to find out everything before I really get married with her or not but my world… it feels like it has ended at that moment. All the fantasies I had about her crumbled up right in front of my eyes” Kyuhyun closed his eyes trying to shake off the bad memories which keep haunting him for months. Although Sungmin was feeling sympathy with Kyuhyun he couldn’t help but feeling jealous over Kyuhyun’s ex lover, he had been receiving nothing but for the past few months because of that girl, if only she never did that maybe Sungmin wouldn’t be trapped in this complicated situation where he knew he was nothing but a stranger for Kyuhyun if only he knew he would ended up loving Kyuhyun, he wanted to turn back time and rejected his parents offer to marry Kyuhyun because there was no way Kyuhyun would love him back

“It must be painful to you… I feel sorry for you every single day Kyu… and even though I never say it out loud I always pray that one day your pain will be changed to happiness, your tears will be changed to smile, but… Don't you think it's unfair that I'm the one who stands in front of you most of the time but you still love someone else and I'm the one who needs to suffer alone?” Kyuhyun opened his eyes and finally looked up to Sungmin, didn’t even realize the latter’s eyes had turned red because of the tears Kyuhyun knew he didn’t deserve it at all. Sungmin had been nothing but really nice to Kyuhyun, it wasn’t like Kyuhyun didn’t know that Sungmin had been always there for him no matter how strong Kyuhyun pushed him away. For goodness sake Sungmin deserved someone much better than him. None of them say anything afterwards, both lost in their own thoughts, finally reached a conclusion that both of them just hurt each other for the past 6 months “I’m sorry…” Sungmin broke the silent again “I’m sorry for being so selfish, it must be hurt so much when she left you and sorry that I couldn’t do anything to make you feel better, you need times to heal and I guess I’m just being selfish by blaming you for my miserable state right now… I… my pain is nothing compared to you I guess” Sungmin couldn’t even smile anymore “I… I need sometime alone, good night” Sungmin walked away left Kyuhyun who still didn’t say any words

After heard about Kyuhyun’s feeling Sungmin had no heart to leave the apartment just yet it felt like he had to remain stand beside Kyuhyun even more but for now he just needed sometime alone to figure out whether his decision to stay was right or wrong but if Kyuhyun decided to just end this weird marriage Sungmin would leave, Sungmin still lost in his own thought while sitting down on his bed alone when he heard a faint knock on his door

“can I come in?” Kyuhyun asked carefully, he looked so worn out that Sungmin just wanted to hug him and tell him everything would be fine but all Sungmin did was just nodding gently without even looking at Kyuhyun, the latter walked slowly to Sungmin’s bed and sat down on a resting chair inside Sungmin’s room “I’m sorry” Kyuhyun said bluntly made Sungmin finally looked up

“For?”

“Everything… for the past 6 months, for being a jerk, just … for everything maybe you think I don’t know about what you’ve done for me since this marriage started, I have to admit, for the first few weeks I didn’t recognize your effort in making my life better but I’ve always known, I’ve always known about what you did and I feel grateful about it but as you know it’s not easy for me to erase my…” Kyuhyun took a deep breath first before continued “my ex from my mind, I thought you were going to leave after few weeks and I’ve been expecting that but seeing you standing still despite the treatment I did… I started to admire you” for the first time after 6 months Sungmin finally saw Kyuhyun’s smile

“Thanks” Sungmin smiled back

“My ex… she’s a really charming person, when she smiles it felt like the world was on my hand, when she laughed it felt like it came from an angel, she has a good personality, she’s a smart woman, she cooks well, she can do everything, she inspired me a lot for the past 3 years” Kyuhyun smiled dreamily while reminiscing those good old times while Sungmin tried his best not to cry or asked Kyuhyun to shut up “She… was my world and even when she betrayed me there’s this part of my heart she took with her and I feel sorry for you I shouldn’t have accepted this marriage” Sungmin took a deep breath ‘this is it’ Sungmin thought to himself

“I shouldn’t accepted this marriage too I guess, well… it’s clear now we should go our own separate way, don’t worry about our parents I guess I can convince them although they are really excited about this marriage, I don’t know what’s going on in their mind when they decided we should marry each other I mean first of all we both are guys but oh well they have been close since they were young, oh and Kyu even if we seprate later you can still call me anytime you need me I’ll be a good listener whenever you feel stress you can talk to me, I’m available 24/7” Sungmin chuckled

“Min”

“Huh?” Sungmin looked at Kyuhyun with his big doe eyes

“You are crying”

“Oh no, I don’t know what happened lately my eyes are hurting I need to see doctor soon I guess” Sungmin rubbed his eyes “DON’T!” Sungmin shouted when Kyuhyun stood up and walked closer to him which immediately stopped Kyuhyun from his way “uhm… I never meant to shout I mean I look ugly with tears on my eyes like this so yeah if you’re done you can leave my room now I need to pack and prepare for tomorrow” Sungmin covered his eyes with his palm trying to hide the tears which didn’t stop falling from his eyes

“pretty” Kyuhyun walked closer to Sungmin again “you are pretty don’t ever say you are ugly” Kyuhyun crouched down in front of Sungmin and pulled Sungmin’s hand away from his eyes, Sungmin opened his eyes and saw Kyuhyun right in front of him “don’t cry because of me, I don’t deserve this tears” Kyuhyun rubbed away the tears on Sungmin’s cheeks “Look at me min” Sungmin blushed when for the first time Kyuhyun called him with his nickname “She was my everything, she was my world, she is my ex, at one point of my life I thought I could never love somebody else again other than her, she was perfect for me but then she crashed the imagination down, I was at my lowest point of my life when you came, I was at my ugliest side of me, I wasn’t me, I was a really bad person, I make you cried a lot even until now, I shrugged you off, I never appreciate what you did I tried to chase you away from my miserable life I’m really sorry for that but believe me when I say this now” Kyuhyun took both Sungmin’s hand on his and looked deeply into Sungmin’s eyes “I love you”

“YOU WHAT?!” Sungmin shouted and trying to find lies on Kyuhyun’s eyes but he couldn’t find any

“I really do, she took part of my heart but then you came and give me your heart which I don’t think I deserve it but I really want it, I will give you mine too slowly pieces by pieces but steadily I will give all my heart to you because I believe you will never break it, so Lee Sungmin… with all my flaws, with the brand new me, would you accept my broken heart and take care of it until it heals?” Sungmin still couldn’t believe of what he heard but nodded eventually

“I love you” Sungmin closed his mouth and his face immediately turned red once he realized what he just said, Kyuhyun smiled again, stood up and sat beside Sungmin

“I love you too” Kyuhyun said before moved his face closer to Sungmin and kissed the latter gently enjoying the sweet mixed with tears taste Sungmin’s lips offer

I feel like making a fluffy epilogue for this, let me see the respond first lol