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This chapter is full of triggers, pain and angst

I'm sorry if its going to hurt any of you 

The boys left around 7:40am, by then, I already ate and took the medicine and I'm now covered under my balnkets, laying on my back and looking at the ceiling. The pain inside my stomach didn't go away, is it getting better or getting worse? I don't know anymore. I was lying like this for over an hour or maybe more I just lost track of time. Closing my eyes occasionally, I only felt my stomach twisting.

I tried to pat slowly on it and make slight circles but it just didn't work and I felt like vomiting again. I pushed myself out of the bed and headed to the toilet as fast as I could. Even though every step I took came with the strong feeling of dizziness and the ground shaking and spinning under my feet, I had to ignore it and continue. As soon as I got to the toilet bowl, I fell on my knees and emptied all what I've just ate. As I let it all go into the toilet, I somehow felt bad for Minhyuk who made me my breakfast this morning and made sure that I ate it, and I somehow remembered all of the other members and how badly I wanted them to be here with me. 

I was on my knees for some time now, 15 minutes, 20 minutes ? I really don't know ! All what I can feel now is my head spinning faster than it did earlier, my head is going crazy, my vesion is blurry, I can't stand it no more, the darkness is taking over me bit by bit and I couldn't stop it from overcoming me. I tried my best to get away from the toilet bowl, I really did but I ended up hitting my back to the tub instaid. All what I could remember was the sound of my back slaming the tub, it suppose to hurt though but it didn't because by then I was no longer conscious.

 I opened my eyes to the horrible feeling of everything hurting so badly; My stomach is twisting, my head is throbbing, my throat is dry and sore and my whole body ached so badly, my back was killing me for some reason which I couldn't remember. I slowly opened my eyes. and I wanted to get up, all what I was thinking about was how to get out of here. For how long have I been out?

"GOD it hurts so much"

I reached my hand to the edge of the tub behind my back and I tried to lean on it, maybe I would be able to lean on it and stand up. So I did it. Even though every muscle in my body ached and though my body didn't have any power in it, I tried. I grabbed the edge of the tub and pulled myself up. All shaking, I almost fell back again. Next, I reached to the wall and then to the door nob as I tried to get out. As soon as I was in the hall, all what I wanted was to grab my phone and call someone, anyone "Shownu Hyung,Wonho Hyung, Minhyuk Hyung" Were all what I could think of, the rest of the members however, my head was so fuzzy I couldn't even remember their names.

 I reached the living room, I basically run for the couch. I let myself drop on it like a dead body.