-You!- Baekhyun screams at the other end of the corridor. He points a finger at me while coming toward me at a fast pace, with eyes that could kill me instantly.
-Baek...- I start to say but he interrupts me.
-I just don't get you! I've changed your appearance and dresses for a reason and you... you waste my help?!?-
-I don't unders...-
-Of course you do not understand! Nobody ever understands anything!- he screams again. He indicates me with his head.
-I do not think I understand what you want to say.-
-You could be a nerd but you do not understand the obvious things.- comments Baekhyun. - How the f... how are you dressed, can you explain it to me?!? I don't know, have not we bought clothes together? Have not we decided some combinations of clothing?-
-Oh. Aaaahhh!- I exclaim after realizing what he wanted to say. Not really understand, as he told me himself. - Sorry but today I'm not in the mood.-
-Really?- he asks incredulously. - What have Yesung made you?!-
-Yesung?-
-Yes c'mon, Jongwoon.-
-He didn't do anything.-
-Did not he invited you to go out?- he asks, looking around.
-Yes b.. But how do you know??-
Baekhyun avoids my eyes and walks away from me slowly. - I.. I.. Chanyeol is waiting for me. I have to go; bye!- he says quickly without giving me time to stop him.
Jongwoon told him that he would invite me to go out? But why should he? I am so absorbed in my thoughts that I don't know where I'm going. And of course I bump into someone. The impact - who is so hard that it seems to go crashing into a wall?! - I fell on my muttering curse words.
-Are you okay?- demands a deep voice.
I look up and in front of me is Siwon. Ah. This explains everything. I'm going to get up when he holds out his hand to help liftiing me. The guy is kind, I had not ever realized it.
-Uhm, thanks.- I mutter while smiling.
-Thank you? I made you falll! - says Siwon showing the smile with dimples that makes everyone fall at his feet.
-Haha no, it was my fault. I wasn't paying attention where I was going.-
-You're right. But I said that to make you feel better.-
-Make me... feel better?-
-Yup. I know that you are one with his head in the clouds very often.-
-Oh good. My fame precedes me.- I mutter, looking down.
-No, c'mon.- minimizes him, trying to make me feel better. Again. - Look, I was going to have a coffee; do you want to come with me?-
Oh. Unexpected. Choi Siwon wants to have coffee with me? Oh well, what have I got to lose? Nothing. And also, he is a good guy and he seems too nice, so why not?
-Alright.-
-Great. Come, follow me.- he says making me a nod.
It is only when we turn to go to the exit that I realize that a few black and piercing eyes witnessed the scene. And by the grimace on his face, I understand that he heard the conversation. ! Why does he always appears at inopportune times?
Kyuhyun, you have to stop thinking about him! He will only bring trouble and also.. Also I do not like him. For this reason, I follow Siwon paying no more attention to the piercing look Jongwoon keeps on me.
 
Siwon and I are sitting in a bar near the University. We arrived about twenty minutes ago and he never removed his eyes off of me. I do not know why, though; maybe I have a whisker of cappuccino foam and him, just to let me make a fool of myself, doesn't say anything. But I don't think Siwon is that bad; he has a kind look and even his gestures are. I am aware of being comfortable around him and... and he is also very cute.
-So you study Informatics. Why?- he questions all of a sudden while leaning back in his chair.
-Uhm.. My appearance does not says a lot about how I am?- I say, pointing at myself.
-Your appearance says a lot, but not what you think.- Siwon answers back smiling.
It is my impression, or in his sentence there is an obvious double meaning? I think too much. We are talking about Choi Siwon, the good looking guy that could have anyone; certainly, he can not choose me.
-Oh no? And what does it say then?- and this from where the comes out?! I'm really... flirting with him?
-Believe me, right now you would not want to know.-
-Oh.- I say pouting. No okay, I'm losing my mind. The sulk?!? But how old I am? One?
-Do not do that, please. It is difficult to resist.- he supplicates leaning forward and gently pinching my cheek. And I just have to blush!
-Alright.- I comment also leaning towards him. - I'm a nerd and I love computers. I would spend my whole life in a single room full computer.- I finally answer his question. He smiles.
-Only computers? Would not you like to be accompanied by someone with whom to spend the time to sleep?-
Another phrase with double meanind! This guy will make me mad. How do I tell him that, at this time, I am so traumatized by the nocturnal activities of my neighbour not to think about going to bed with someone? I'm about to say something reasonable, that could make me get out of the area in which he is trying to go - at least I understand this! - but Hyukjae and Donghae arrive. I thank them mentally for coming now.
 
 
-I'm home!- I step Into the house and I take off my shoes. I expect the answer of my mom but I do not hear it.
I go in the kitchen and can not find her there then I search through the house without finding her. But where did she go? I pull out my cell phone to call her and ask her where she is but I realize that I have an unread message. I open it and pull a sigh of relief; it is my mom. She warnes me that she and dad went out to dinner so to eat the leftovers that are in the refrigerator. If she had told me sooner, I would have go to dinner with Hyukjae, Donghae and Siwon who have invited me. I sigh torn down and go to dinner.
What a silent house. Indeed, almost silent. From the apartment next door come the muffled sound of music and voices. Even the rave party at his house, now? I go in the room to do the task that the math teacher asked, but I realize that I could not finish anything. Why? Because the neighbour has decided that despite the party, ing is the right thing to do.
Disappointed - why I feel like that? What problem do I have? - I go into my room, where at least I can't hear the stifled groans and screams. And then he invited me to go out?! Does he really believe that I am one easy to take to bed? Well, he is wrong!
 
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I open my eyes and find myself in a larger room than mine. I look at the sides and I realize that I'm lying on my bed between my parents. I blush. Since I was four years old that I didn't sleep with my parents.
I get out of bed in a hurry and I go to get ready to go to class, not even wanting to eat breakfast in a hurry to get out of the house because... I am embarassed. They would have wondered why I was in their room, and I hope that they have not heard loud noises coming from the near appartment.
 
 
-Hi Kyu!- Minho screams as he gets close to me and winks to the right.
I raise an eyebrow and I follow his gaze. Oh men! Siwon is leaning against my locker. He is clearly waiting for someone because he continues to look around. When his eyes fall on me, he smiles and greets me. Kyuhyun, breath normally. He is not a movie star, he's a regular guy and.. Oh hell! Anyone would melt in his presence.
-Hello Kyuhyun-ah, how did it go last night?-
-Good. If it was not for my damn neighbour. I was forced to sleep in the bed with my parents.- I admit nervously scratching my head.
He bursts out laughing. - Aigoo, you're so innocent.- he says while putting an arm around my shoulders.
-Yes, he is.- says Minho supporting Siwon.
-Hey! Do not laugh at me.- I retort before sulking. I'm getting used to it, apparently.
-Kyuhyun... - mutters low Siwon. We stop and he comes close to my ear. - Stop with the pouting if you don't want me to kiss you.- his low voice sends me shivers down my spine.
I blush hard and look away from his face. It's not right! It had to be an... an Adonis that wanted to flirt with me?! I feel so... easy! In short, until yesterday I liked Jongwoon and I still like him, even if he is not Siwon. But even a day from the invitation of Jongwoon that I'm already flirting with somebody? Argh! I am too complicated!
I shake my head and at that moment I lock my gaze with Jongwoon's one. I have the impression that he is pissed off and that he could punch Siwon. He could, because he wouldn't risk beating this strapping man walking alongside me. I think. And sure enough - thankfully, I would not be able to nurse Jongwoon without flirting -, he left us not without first launch one look of pure hatred at Siwon.
 
 
-Kyuhyun, raise your out of bed and come and help me in the kitchen, you wretch.- my mom yells from the hallway.
-Why?-
-Because I have invited friends and I need you to give me a hand to cook, lazy.-
Reluctantly, I get up from the bed and join her, almost running because I know she could kill me. The truth is that I can not cook much, but I can cut so I help with that. Although I could don't do it, so I avoid to dine with anyone she has invited.
We are so engrossed in the kitchen - including small talk, orders and my curses - not realizing immediately that the bell keeps ringing. My mother pauses for a moment by mixing the vegetables in the pan to turn to me.
-Go to open.- she says before turning back to the stove.
I'm not exactly dressed to open to guests: I'm wearing the pants of a suit and a loose sweater, I'm also using the glasses from home - which are the oldest and most damaged -. But I can not open the door, otherwise the wrath of my mother as soon as the guests will go away. For this, very slowly because I try to fix my hair that today decided to be messy, I go to open the door. And before me I find Jongwoon, Baekhyun, a guy whom I do not know and a woman around my mother's age.
-Hello Kyuhyun!- exclaims Baekhyun smiling.
I am very confused and I do not answer. Certainly the new faces will think I am a boor.
-Hi, you must be the son of Eunji.- the woman says, handing me her hand. I hold it and smile at her.
-Um yes. And you are...?-
-Oh, I am Baekhyun's mom, almost Jongwoon mother because he comes very often at our house... and Donghyuk's aunt.- she replies while pointing to the new guy.
-Oh. Pleased to meet you ma'am.- I say bowing. I get up and I move aside. - Please, enter.-
The four enter the house while I stay a moment longer in the doorway watching them. Do I only know crazy and strange people? And why that boy, Donghyuk, looked at me as... as if he wanted to eat me? Please do not let it be another stalker as Jongwoon's level. And speaking of the latter.. He did not even greeted or nodded. I can not help but feel sad. I close the door and I follow the four guests into the living room, where my mom has already placed the glasses, soft drinks and appetizers. Donghyuk and his aunt sit on the couch, Jongwoon sits in the chair with Baekhyun sitting on the armrest. Oh no, don't worry, make yourself at home, huh? Oh well, the thing that makes me angry is not that one. No, what makes me angry is Baekhyun perched on the chair where Jongwoon sat. I, wanting to keep vacant the other chair where my father will sit, sit on the chair opposite the armchair where the two friends are sat.
-Oh Eunji, you always prepare delicious things.- compliments my mum Baekhyun's one.
Wait, did she say "always"? Exactly, how long have they known each other?
-And I finally see your son. The other times he was out, right?- she adds looking Jongwoon.
-Yes, he is usually in school or studyingwith his friends.-
No excuse me, so she has already come to our house? And why is she watching Jongwoon? Why do I have such a complicated life?! I feel like crying!
-I see that there is also Donghyuk.-
-Oh yes. He was at our house and I asked him if he wanted to come to know his neighbours, as he always arrives at home late at night. He had not yet introduced himself.-
Wait a moment. NEIGHBOURS ?! But Jongwoon is our neighbour, no? Unless she meant "building neighbour" or "floor neighbour". I raise my head sharply and look at Jongwoon, but he keeps his eyes fixed on my mother. Oh no, this can't go on like this. First you look for me and everything, and now you do not want to look into my eyes?!
-Kyu, would you mind going into the kitchen for the other tray? Oh, and the bottles of water.-
I'm thinking about how to bring everything. I'm not an octopus, my dear mother. I snort and go to the kitchen, I approach the table where the tray is and I look also how many bottles there are. No, I just can not do it in one trip. I take the tray and I'm about to turn around, when I feel that someone is behind me.
-Let me help you.- I hear from the person behind me while sticking his hands to take the bottles. His voice, low and hoarse, sends shivers down my back.
I look at his hands and see that they are small. They do not give me the impression that they are of Donghyuk and even those of Baekhyun - about him I'm sure, because he helped me dress when we went shopping together -. So remains only one person. I turn around and I am in front of Jongwoon's look.
-Jo-Jo-Jong...-
-Yes, Kyuhyun-ssi. It's me.- he stops me coldly.
-Look...-
-Sorry, I have to bring the bottles in the living room.-
What is his problem? Why does he continue to interrupt me and talk to me in that tone? I approach him with the tray as we go into the living room, but before leaving the kitchen, Jongwoon turns to me.
-I tell you just one thing: do not judge a book by its cover.- and with this, he leaves the kitchen.
I assume he is angry about something that I did to him. But what? Rejecting him? Hang out with Siwon? I have no idea! And why did he told me that phrase? It refers to me, for sure. But what does it mean? Who is it that I have judged.. Oh, him.
I follow Jongwoon in the living room and sit down. Although no one is talking to me - because... well, I prefer to listen - I hear constantly someone's gaze on me but whenever I raise my head, no one is staring at me.
Baekhyun's mom decides it's time to go, she excuses herself and gets up, followed by his son. The two neighbours, however, do not get up. Did I miss something? We wave both Baekhyun and his mom and my mom accompanies them to the door, leaving me alone with the two boys. A shiver runs down my spine, I do not know whether out of fear or something else.
-Kyuhyun, what are you studying?- Donghyuk questions before his lips.
I nervously move on the chair and Jongwoon sees me but does not open his mouth. - Informatics.- I simply answer hoping that he leaves me alone.
-So you're a nerd?- he continues enjoying the view of my bare shoulder. I swallow.
-Yes, but not because of that. My friends are not nerds.- I reply while settling the sleeve of my sweater.
-Thus even I can be your friend?- I do not know why, but I feel that his last word meant something dirty.
-I'm ve-very selective with my friendship.- I stammer seeking help in Jongwoon. He raises an eyebrow.
Donghyuk approaches me and I see Jongwoon stiffen and clench his fists. He the arm that early was bare and approaches his mouth to my ear.
-You are really nice while stuttering. And... - he pass his hand on my neck -... as I know that you have fun listening to me at night, join me.-
I'm petrified. My brain fails to record anything that happens around me and the only thing I know is that I woke up from my trance when my mom came back into the living room. Unable to stand another minute in that room, I bid good night to my mom and I mutter a general greeting before going running to my bedroom and just get in the bed.
Why Jongwoon did nothing? He hates me so much to let his roommate touch me like that?
 
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-Kyuhyun, it is better for you if you pay attention to the lesson.- Kangin whispers in my ear while leaning towards me from his desk.
I look at him with a raised eyebrow. - Because?-
He can not even answer that I see him throw a frightened look to my left. I turn my head and see Jongwoon with his hands on his hips and a looking serious on me. I look to the professor and I realize that he is staring at me with a stern look.
-Cho Kyuhyun, pay attention.- Jongwoon order.
Oh, now I understand. He speaks only if his future job is in danger. Honestly, at this time he is the last person who should approach me and talk to me. I'm pissed, to say the least. So I do what I want to do: ignore him.
He slams his hand on my desk. - Cho Kyuhyun, the teacher asked you a question. Answer.- he insists while softening the tone of his voice.
I puff and get up from the chair, taking with me my backpack and my books from the desk. I turn my head towards Jongwoon and I glare at him before heading to the door. ! If his fault if I'm beginning to leave the classroom without warning and for no apparent reason. Before I leave the classroom, however, I turn to the professor.
-Excuse me, but today I'm not feeling well.- I bow my head and then go out of the classroom, feeling the room plunged into a stunned silence.
I swear that if I find him before me, I strangle him. And I'll even strangle Donghyuk, that madman of a erted maniac! Just who the hell do they believe they are? They're just opportunists s.
I walk along the corridor, immersed in gruesome thoughts of all kinds with me that I torture those two unfortunates of my neighbours, when I bump into someone, falling on my and dropping the books I was carrying by hand.
-It's incredible. We always meet bumping into each other.- says the other person.
"Always bumpinto into each other?", I think before looking up. And in front of me I see Siwon, accompanied by Hyukjae, who bends down to pick up my books and holding out at me a hand to pull me up.
-Sorry. Lately, my head is elsewhere- I answer making him giggle. Mine was not a joke, Adonis.
-I do not mind bump into you. But I think your is the one suffering- says Siwon making me blush. Ah, yes, he is in his phase of flirting with me. Who can understand him!
-Shouldn't you be in class?- Hyukjae questions while I dust my trousers. - Donghae said that at this hour you have informatics.- adds when he sees me hesitating.
-Did the professor kick you out of the classroom?!- Siwon questions concerned.
-Oh no!- I quickly answer while I raise my hands shaking them in the air. - I.. I went out.-
-Why?- they ask in unison.
-Well.. Hmm.. Because I wanted.- I lie, hoping they would not dig into the matter.
-Ah, got that.- Siwon says handing me my books.
-Well, we were going to take the places for lunch. You coming with us?- questions Hyukjae.
-Sure.- and so I follow them to the cafeteria.
As we walk, Hyukjae informs me that tomorrow night he will hold a party - another one; in practice, he makes one a week - and that, of course, me and my friends are invited, indeed we are obliged to be there. Meanwhile Siwon has put his arm on my shoulders, leaning me closer to him. Luckily I do not talk much, otherwise I would stutter endlessly and goodbye to any conversation while we wait the others!
 
Lunch was very hilarious. I discovered that Heechul loves teasing Siwon; when they are together they seem dog and cat and, goodbye peace! Kangin and Minho continued to tell jokes, funny anecdotes as they talked about sports. Leeteuk tried to separate the two octopuses - aka, Donghae and Hyukjae - while swatting Heechul's hands away from his dish.
Luckily I have friends like that! They manage to make me forget my problems in a few moments. Ah, not that I have not thought about Siwon. Why him? Because he is seriously questioning on my crush. Okay, I admit that I like Jongwoon though whenever Siwon speaks to me, I feel happy and at ease, and sometimes I think I'd like to be hugged by his strong arms and rest my head on his chest. If I look Jongwoon, the only thing I want to do, right now, is to punch him. I know, I am violent and moody but it's his fault, not mine. It is he who made me angry not helping me when Donghyuk was a jerk. It is he who speaks to me only when his position is at risk.
Anyway, never mind and think of nothing else. Like searching for Baekhyun to ask him to go out with me and go to choose an outfit for tomorrow night, because I want to leave Siwon speechless. And that's what I'm doing since half an hour as he does not deigns to answer my phone calls, while I walk around the University. At one point, I arrive under the weeping willow that is in the garden and I find Baekhyun sitting together with a guy who I assume is Chanyeol, given the ears. Before I show myself to them, I see them exchange a sweet kiss on the cheek and join hands. How cute!!
-Hello Baekhyun.- I softly say as I stop in front of them.
I see them wince and let go their hands. Chanyeol looks around embarrassed while Baekhyun scratches his neck nervously.
-Hel-Hello Ky-Kyuhyun.- Baekhyun stutters not looking me in the eyes.
-I will not say anything to no one if you don't want.-
Chanyeol sets his gaze on me and lets a sigh of relief. Baekhyun, however, jumps up and hugs me.
-Oh thank you, thank you! We'll tell the others, tomorrow night at the party.- squeaks Baekhyun while shaking me more and more.
-About the party...- I start looking at Chanyeol assuring me that he gives me permission - Would you mind come with me to get something to wear? I want to leave speechless... someone.-
-Of course! Can Yeollie come?- Baekhyun asks me doing the puppy-dog eyes.
- Sure.- I assure him.
So we find ourselves in a shop where I never dreamed of entering. Not for the prices, no. Mostly because they have always seemed clothes that were not going to fit well on a nerd like me. But since Baekhyun took me the first time to go shopping I took notice on how I get dressed to go out, except when I'm pissed off in the early morning.
-Try these one.- order Baekhyun while passing me white jeans with rips and a blue shirt.
I take them and enter the dressing room. I already love these jeans! Not to brag or make the narcissist one but they perfectly wrap around my legs, which are long, and around my ... in short, it is something good. I don't love the shirt instead, not for the color but because it's simple. I go out and I let Baekhyun see the outfit.
-Uhm.. I don't like the shirt. It's to..-
-It's to simple.- Chanyeol says instead. Baekhyun gives him a dreamy look and a smile from ear to ear.
-Exactly what I meant. While we waited I took this, that is more to your stile.- informs Baekhyun and pass me a shirt of the same color but with a different slant.
I enter again the dressing room and I wear the shirt. I love it! That is, I love it because... because it leaves bare my shoulder! The neckline is so broad and the shirt as well, that inevitably a sleeve slides down along the shoulder, discovering it. That's just what I need. I go out and I make in time to see the couple exchange a tender kiss before they see me.
-I like it.- is the only comment that makes Chanyeol.
-Modestly..- Baekhyun compliments himself.
I reach to go back in the dressing room when Baekhyun puts a hand on my shoulder and, all smiles, he approaches me.
-Who are you going to seduce tonight?- he whispers.
-Oh.. Well I..- I blush and look away from him. - Siwon.-
Baekhyun's eyes widen. - Siwon?!?-
-Yes why?-
-I..-
-What?-
-Nothing, don't worry.- Baekhyun says as he walks away from me.
-Okaay. But tell me something..- I smile before leaning to Baekhyun. - The guy who you wanted to make jealous, and who lives in the building next to mine... is Chanyeol?-
-It's n-not you-your bus-business.- he stutters while blushing. - Anyway, we were not kissing. It was the fault of the perspective.- he adds after calming down.
I do not know why but knowing this makes me happy. It means that they weren't kissing. It means that they are not together and they were not together. But know this change anything? I mean, I don't stand Jongwoon so I have to get over him.