"Mark, can you please explain now what is happening?" i asked.

Mark is sitting beside me. we're all alone.
we're now done eating and the others are all back at the dorm now.
He asked me to come here at Han River. of course i agreed. who am i to not accept his request :D
He told me he'll explain everything here.
But we're just sitting here for maybe half an hour already and he's not talking -___-

"ah? sorry. i just suddenly remembered everything." he replied keeping his stare on the river.

"everything? about what?"i curiously asked.

"about us."

i was so shocked. like if i can swear i already did. the heck?! about us??? i don't get it!!
me????! with Mark Tuan??? of Got7??!! oh my goodness. i have a bad feeling about this.
i think i'm gonna die.

"w-what do you mean 'us'? i don't understand. can you please explain?" i asked with my heart beating a million times
faster than usual.

he sighed. a deep sigh.

"i really want to. i'm dying to explain this to you. but the thing is..." he paused for a moment.

"i don't know how. i don't know where to start."

now my thoughts are really ruined. Mark how can youuuuuuuuuuuuuu!

"okay..." he faced me and took my hand.

"promise me first that you'll believe the things that i will say. because i promise everything i'll tell
you is true. all of these happened. you're just not able to remember."

"i....." is all i replied.

i don't know what to say. believe everything he'll say?
why? what if he said he's a ghost? haha lol

so what now...
what am i going to say?
should i say 'okay i'm going to believe whatever you'll say' just to know what is this all about?

...

...

okay. :D

"i promise." i finally answered.

he took a very deeeeeeeeeeep sigh again and started explaining.

"well..."

he stopped again. he looks like he really don't know where to start and how to explain whatever he's trying to
tell me.

it's just intriguing me and i'm dying to know what is it that me and Mark has. i mean... wow. lol what
am i doing. i should be serious :D

"you are my girlfriend."

"WHAT?! ME?!"

okay that freaked me. HOW???! ME?! GIRLFRIEND?! MARK TUAN?! i knew i'm going to die tonight :D

"i know you're surprised. but let me finish okay?"
"oh sorry."

he smiled.

"we know each other ever since we're young. we're the best of friends. i always go to your house and you always go
in our house and we'll have a sleep over even though we're only neighbors."

that's strange. i remember having someone as my childhood friend but i can't remember anything about that person.
i mean, i know i have a friend but i don't know who he is.

"and then, we'll go to school together. our section is right next to each other. i'm in section A. you're in section B.
everytime our breaktime comes, you're always the first to go out of your room and will quickly call me to have lunch
together." he continued.

i'm finding it reeeally strange now. how is it that i can remember everything but i can't remember the person.

"may i ask you something?" he said.

i just raised my eyebrows signalling that he may.

"do you, by any chance, remember anything i'm telling you?" he asked looking uneasy.

"honestly, yes." i answered. his face cheered up a bit.

"but i can't remember the person." i continued which made his face look sad again.

"that's okay. maybe later. i still have lots of things to tell you."

okay? so are you telling me we'll sit here until tomorrow morning? haha.

"as we become adults, our friendship grew even more. nothing and no one can separate us. even our parents."

he stopped and smiled a bit. why do i feel that these memories are so precious to him.
what am i really to Mark. how did all of these happen without me knowing or remembering T_T

"we both know that we have feelings for each other. we're not confessing it but we know. we know because
we show it without even talking about it."

"then one day, i decided to confess to you and asked you to be my girl."

"really??! what did i say????" i excitedly interrupted his story.

"you said yes. and we had a great relationship. it was nearly perfect." he stopped. his face frowned.

"nearly? why? did something happened?" wow.. i had a relationship with Mark. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah <3

he smiled. a force smile.

"yes something happened. i became a trainee of JYP and after that, everything has changed."

i tilted my head. how would being a trainee affect us? i mean i know myself.
i'll understand his schedule if ever.

"i know you're wondering how it affected our relationship. unfortunately, that's always the reason we're
having a fight."

"waaaaaaaaaah really?? how.. why.."

"i know it's hard to believe but yeah. we fight a lot because of my schedule. i'm always busy
and not able to call you or anything. that made you upset as it went through for 2 years.
we only talk once a month. i'm only able to send you 4 messages in two years. the one is my greeting for
your birthday and the other one is my greeting for Christmas."

that made me sad. how??? am i that kind of person? why didn't i know? whyyyyyyyyyyy

"but... i know myself..  i would understand your schedule."

'well at first you do.. ir's okay with you. but what made you really upset is when i forgot our anniversary. i forgot it twice.
you let it pass for the first one but not the second one. that is our first.major and last fight."

his story keeps on getting intense. it's like a love story in the movies. i can't believe this.

"first?? major???? LAST??" i'm over reacting -__-

"yes last. that day when we're fighting, we're here. exactly in this spot. you're crying so hard. you're breaking up with me
but i don't want to. you said we have to because you'll just ruin my career and i have to focus. but i disagreed.
i never want to leave you. we're both crying. i don't know what to do back then."

this is so sad... a total disaster.
how could i do this??? why can't i remember doing this??? ugh,.

"Mark, what happened. i'm getting puzzled. why can't i remember it and yet you can
and it's still clear in your mind. every detail."

i seriously asked. it's making my head ache so much. my heart feels like it's gonna explode.
what is really the mystery behind all of these?!!!

"after we had a quarrel, after you keep insisting to break up with me, we're both hurt especially you.
i tried to talk to you when you calmed down but when i was about to approach you, you ran away.
you were crying so hard. even though i cannot take it seeing you crying i still followed you.
you were running without looking around. i kept calling your name but you're not looking back at me. you just
keep on running until...."

my imagination of the scene vanished as Mark stopped. i looked at him and saw him crying.
now this is serious.

"w-why are you crying..." i don't know what to do.

why is he crying?'
does he love me so much? (OMG <3! LOL)
do we really love each other???

why can't i remember???! damn.

"M-Mark..."

"it's okay. don't worry." he wiped his tears and sniffed a little.

"what happened while i was running away?" i asked.

"you... you got hit by a car."

i was silenced. i was hit by a car?! then why don't i know?! it's impossible.

"it was so serious. there's blood all over your body especially on your head. i start to panic at that
moment i don't know what to do i----"

"it's fine. don't continue. i know it hurts when you remember. i'm really sorry for what i've done."
i said cutting his words.

i can see and feel that he's really hurt while he's telling the tragedy that i can't believe happened to us.
i mean, seriously? if i'm on the right mind i'll never----

wait.. i'm on the right mind that time am i...

"Mark.."

"hmmm?"

"what happened after the accident?"

"ah. you finally knew huh." he smirked bitterly.

"tell me." i seriously said.

"that was the most hurtful moment. it feels like i died. you had an amnesia.' he said then looked me in the eyes.

amnesia.

amnesia.

amnesia.

THAT'S IT!! THAT'S WHY I CAN'T REMEMBER HIM!
THAT'S WHY I CANNOT REMEMBER ANYTHING!
THAT'S WHY I CANNOT.....

no....

i can...

i can feel it...

i still can feel my love for him..

that's why he's my bias. that's why i like him so much. that's why everytime i see him it feels like i had
known him all my life.

THAT'S WHY!

"(your name)? are you okay?" Mark made me came back to my senses.

"MARK!"

i can't help it and hugged him. i'm so happy. i'm so happy that now i can remember everything! thanks to him <3

"a-are you---"

"yes! i'm okay. i'm okay now. thanks to you. everything is clear now to me. now i understand it all.
thank you. thank you Ma---"

i'm not able to finish my words as his lips landed on mine. OH MY GHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love this feeling.
i love this feeling like i missed this kiss so much.
it feels like a very long time since his lips were pressed on mine. <3

he departed from the kiss and hugged me so tight.

"i missed you. soooooo much."
"me too." i said then smiled.

it feels so great. finally i understand everything. finally someone has explained it to me. finally.

we both parted from the hug and looked at each other's eyes.

"so.... are we going to continue our love story?" Mark asked.

"why not..  ^__^" i answered.

we were now both smiling. i love it when i see his smile. it brightens up my day.

"let's go. it's getting colder." Mark said then took my hand.

"where are we going?" i asked.

"in my room." he seductively answered.

"MARK!"

"just kidding. hahaha. i'll take you home <3"

where is that home. ♥♥♥♥

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