Holding hands in public, being able to kiss your lover without having to worry who's around, going on dates without fully disguising yourself, 

these are such simple couple things, yet I can't do that.

Why? 

Because I'm an idol.

As much as I love what I do, I just wish everyone could accept the reality that, we too are humans. 

We have feelings too, we get hurt.

There's always high expectations on idols,  so much love yet so much hate as well. 

Having to please everyone, when you know yourself you can't 

Why is it okay for everyone else to date? But when it comes to us it's wrong? Why must we be bashed for wanting to love? 
Is it crime to be in love? 
It just really gets to me,  I want to be able to do all these things freely without having to worry about what others think.

Why can't I just scream out that your mine and only mine.

All these thoughts drive me insane,
I never thought like this before and 
honestly love never crossed my mind.

My only focus was my career, but that all changed when I met Jaebum.

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Short first chapter, they will get longer!
I hope you like it (: