01-18-10- 6:40am 

 

"Kringggg. Kringgg"

 

My phone is ringing. It seems like someone's calling huh. 

"Oh great!" 

-checked the clock to see what time it is-

 "It's too early to call man. Where's my phone anyway?"

-looks anywhere in the room- 

"Oh there it is."

-checks my phone-

 

/Jessica is calling/ 

  -answers the call-

 "Oh yeobo? Good morning." -yawns- "is there something wrong?" -rubs my eyes-

"Let's meet up.." 

"Yah.. what's wrong yeobo?"

"I'll text you the address where we'll meet."

-she hanged up-

/Call ended/

 

What did i do to her? Looks like she's mad. 

 

 "You got a new message" -phone ringtone

-checks the phone-

"oh. The address."

-gets up and went downstairs-

 

"Good morning hyung! You're too early to get up huh?" said Ryeowook and laughs.
Well. Ryeowook is one of my dorm mates here, he's the cook and the Mother of this dorm. 

 

"Hello ryeong! Well Sica called and she wants me to meet her." -goes infront of the bathroom and knocks the door- "Is someone there?" 

 

"Hey wait for your turn! Stop knocking man!" Eunhyuk shouted.

My dorm mate too, the freaking badass of this dorm, but he's stupid tho. 

 

"Oh Hyuki-hyung is always like that." Ryeowook said and he laughed. 

 

 -Eunhyuk finally opens the door- 

"Happy now!?" He said and went upstairs.

 

"That guy is really a pabo" i sighed.

So i took a bath. Went upstairs and put some clothes. 

 

/Jessica texted again/ 

"Where are you?" -Jessica

"I'll be there in a minute. Mianhae yeobo! I love you" -i replied.

  -i went downstairs again-

 "Take care hyung! You sure you don't wanna taste my pancake?" Ryeowook asked. 

 

"Nah i'm fine saeng. Got to go. Bye."

-i walked out- 

So while i was walking down the streets.

I'm waiting for her reply but seems like she don't.

But it's okay. I know she has a freakin' cold personality right now but she'll be fine soon. 

"Oh. It's a cafe."

-infront of the cafe- -went inside the cafe- -finds sica-

"Yeobo!" -sat down infront of her.

"Donghae.." she sounded like she was depressed. 

 -starting to worry- "what's wrong?" I asked curiously.

"Let's.." she said as she cried and her hands were shaking.

"What is it?" I asked and wipes away her tears.

"No. Don't." She pushed me away.

  -sits down- "then.. what's wrong? Is there something i've done wrong?" I asked once again.

 "Let's... end this, Dong hae." She said.

"End.. this? End what?"

 

"Us." She answered. 

 

"Oh sica. I know you just want me to buy a big teddy bear again." I said

 

"I'm serious." She said.

 

"I'm serious too." 

 

"Let's end this right now!" -she shouted angrily.

 

"What the hell are you talking about!?" I shouted back. 

And she started crying again.

 

"Sorry sorry, Jessica. I didn't mean to--" i wiped her tears again.

 

"Stop caring about me, Donghae. This is all a lie." 

 

"How could you say that, Sica?" 

 

"I don't wanna pretend anymore.." she said.

I was shocked. Why in the world would she ever say that?

 

"Stop this joke, Sica." 

 

"I'm breaking up with you." She stands up. And my tears started to fall. "I found.. someone better than you." 

 

"Why.." 

 

She turned away from me but i stopped her by hugging her so tight.

 

"Let's fix this together, Jessica.." I whispered to her while crying.

 

 She took my arms away from her .

 

"There is no way to fix this kind of thing." -wipes her own tears- "Good bye."

 

She turned away again.

 

"Don't leave me Jessica!!" I shouted.

 

And now everyone's staring at us in this cafe. 

"Stop acting like a baby!" She shouted back and slapped me on the face. "I'm not a nanny to take care someone like you!"

"How could you..?"

 

I was offended of what she said, and now everyone's whispering and laughing about us.. or just me..

"I.. don't love you anymore!" And her eyes flashed with anger and resentment.

She took her bag and rushed off.

 

That.. was the last line i ever heard from her. I was about to burst into tears again, 
And now I'm filled with so much anger, hate, and sadness;

 
So. I went to a bar and starts drinking by myself. 
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While Sungmin and Yesung.

"Is that Donghae?" Sungmin asked Yesung. (Also Donghae's dorm mates.)

"Yeah. Why is he here?" They both approached Donghae.

"Hae? What are you doing here?" said Yesung -taps Hae's back- 

"Hi hyuuuungs.. Joiin muee heee!" invited them to drink. "3 mooore caaans of beeeer e.... sir!" -raises hand-

"Okay sir." -gives them beers- 

"What's really the problem bro? Asked Sungmin.

"proooblem..?" -chuckles- "I'm the... probleem heree.." -drinks- -starting to cry-

"Want me to sing you a song?" Yesung asked. 

"If i hear youuu singiingg.. Tsss! I'll cry even moreee." -sobs-

"Oh no hyung! You made him cry!" Sungmin starts panicking.

"I'm sorry donghae! I won't sing anymoree!" -hugs Donghae- 

"Just kill me insteaaad Jessicaaa!!" Donghae shouted while crying.

"Jessica?" Both Yesung and Sungmin asked with curiosity and looks at each other.

"what happened? Tell us!" Said Sungmin while shaking Donghae's body. 

"She brooke up! With me.." -wipes his tears- "Do i really act like a kid...?" 

 

"As always!" answered Yesung.   

 

"Hyung." Sungmin glared at Yesung. "No, you're not, hae, let's go home now." He helped Donghae to get up.

 

"No!" Donghae removed Sungmin's arms and took out a knife. "I'm so done.." He said while sobbing. And everyone's starts panicking.

 

"Hae.. Where did you get that thing. Put it down!" Sungmin widens his eyes on Donghae. 

 

"Donghae-ah.. don't kill us!" Yesung hides behind Sungmin. 

 

"No.. Hyung, i won't kill anyone.." And he starts cutting his wrist with a knife. 

 

"Stop the hell out of this!" Sungmin stopped Donghae by taking the knife away from Hae, he threw the knife on the ground and hugs Donghae tightly. "We're here for you.. Always.." 

 

"Thank you, hyung.." Donghae suddenly fainted.

 

"Oh god bro! Wake up!" -slapping Hae's face- 

"Help us!!" Yesung shouted. 

And they brought Donghae to the hospital.

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(Back to Donghae's POV)

Is it already.. morning? I opened my eyes and saw my dormmate Ryeowook sleeping beside me. 

"Hey ryeong." I pinched his cheeks.

Ryeowook starts to wake up. "Oh hi hyung." -rubs his eyes- "so how are you?"

"Oh men i can't remember a single thing." 
My head really hurts. Am i drunk last night? My wrist wrapped with bandage and it freakin' hurts, damn Donghae, what the hell did you do?

"Are you really okay, hyung?" Ryeowook starts worrying.

 

 "Where's sic--" i stopped and suddenly remembered what happened yesterday.. My face became sad and tears are falling. 

"Hyung! Don't cry..." said Ryeowook and taps my back. 

At first, i really thought she was just joking back then. A sudden break up really hurts. What was her reason for breaking up with me then? I don't think i made a horrible mistake, I treated her really like a princess.

Well.. i gave my everything to Jessica. She's my first and hoping to be the last. She's really my everything, my life.  Now what should i do without her?
We've been together for 5 years, Jessica. But why?.