Thanks for the warm cups of coffee & blueberry muffins

Thanks for being there when i had bad days

Holding me tight and whispering sweet nothings 

The tinkly laughs that made my heart melt.

Those huge brown orbs that tinkle and shine.

The luscious lips i would kill to claim as mine.

Your fluffy black hair that spreads like a halo.

People who walk past can't help but say hello.

I stand next to you,as rigid as stone.

A sense of dread creeping into my bones.

"He's not yours." says my mind.

But my heart whispers,"then don't waste your time."

I rock back and forth on my heels.

Cheeks flushed red to tell you how I feel.

But,my heart shattered into pieces,

Seeing another guy giving you kisses.

I boiled silently in rage.

But managed to put on a facade.

You intoduced me to him.

My face displayed feelings of grim.

Thoughts and feelings clouded my mind

Until i realised you can never be mine.

I'm sorry for always being in the way.

I'm sorry for being clingy.

I'm sorry for...

loving you.

But I will forever be thankful

That you were once my friend 

You brightened up my days with that beautiful eyesmile.

You made me feel secure while whe cuddled in a pillow pile.

Remember when you held my hand during that roller coaster ride?

Or when we strolled along the beach when it was low tide?

When we laid on our sides and i stared into your eyes.

Something sparked inside of me and i finally realised

But alas i was too much of a coward and waited for too long.

You were like a candle which lit up my way

Until all the wax was melted and the flame long gone,

I realised you were the only reason i could get through my days

And now that you're gone,i shall extinguish like the flame.

Looking down at the speeding cars & imagining what we could've been one last time.

Before i shut my eyes and did the deed

My little heart whispered with greed,

"If Only Jungkook Were Me."