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Annoyed. That's what I am feeling right now. I can't seem to get a chance to get close to the maknae. Either I am too nervous, caught up in my own thoughts and end up breaking something, AKA my nickname God of Destruction, or one of the other guys is around. It's easier for them because they don't have a problem showing affection. With me. . .I'm awkward. I mean, my appearance makes me seem kind of tough but in all honesty, I'm super soft. Plus, Jungkook is someone that, even after only a little time, I have really grown to care about. I'm scared that I will say something stupid or something that will scare him away. It would be a nightmare if he didn't want to talk to me. I'd go crazy. Plus, he is so sweet and precious and I want to be the best self I can be for him, because he deserves everything.

Today is a relax day. Tomorrow we record the new version of War of Hormone and today everyone was supposed to rest their voices and, if need be, go over their lines if forgotten. The 95z are watching TV in the living room. Yoongi is sleeping (big shocker). Hoseok is at the dance studio filming a new episode of Hope On The Street. Jin is at the grocery store buying some more food - you'd be surprised how fast we go through food in a week. I was walking to my rom and I passed by the maknae line's room. I looked at the door and sighed. When will I get my chance? I heard a thud from inside the room.

"Ugh, why can't I get this?"

I tilted my head slightly when I heard the voice. Jungkook? 

I softly knocked. "Jungkook can I come in?" There was a moment of silence.

"Ne, Namjoon hyung"

My heart slightly fluttered when he said my name, then I slowly opened the door and peaked my head in. He was sitting on his bed looking down at his lyrics with an angry pout on his face. Still cute af literally how does this kid do it?

"Jungkook are you okay? I heard that you seemed frustrated"

I hesitantly sat down next to him on the bed. He widened his eyes and softly blushed, probably at the fact that he thought no one heard.

"I-it's nothing hyung. I don't want ot burden you with my problems."

A light bulb went off in my head. This is how I can get close to him!  I put my hand on his shoulder.

"Kookie you're family now. We all share the same problems and burdens and we help each other through them. I'd love to help you. Now what seems to be the problem?" Jungkook fiddles with his fingers.

"Well actually hyung you would be very helpful" he shyly smiled. I smiled widely and nodded enthusiastically.

"So what do you need help with?" Jungkook sighed.

"Well, I already memorized my lines for the song"

"That's great!"

"Yeah it is, but when I rap a specific part, I can't seem to bring out the right emotion" I nodded in understanding. It is hard to express certain emotions through your lyrics. I've definitely been through that, especially with lyrics about love. I have never experienced love (until now) so it was hard to bring out that adoration in my voice.

"Well let me see the lyrics and maybe I can help you" He smiled and nodded.

I looked at the lyrics for his rap in War Of Hormone:

My eyes keep rolling, over this girls tummy (yup)
Girls are equations us men are the sum (yup)
I lose sweat, somehow we can’t be equal
Wear it more often, high heel
I’m eighteen, I know what I need to know
That being a woman is the best thing in the world
Yes I’m a bad boy so I like bad girl
Come here baby we will be well

I just blinked. He nervously bit his lip.

"Y-you see, the feel for this rap is kind of cocky, and I-I'm always so shy and quiet. I would never boast like this