I never thought I'd be making a note like this.

I hope everyone's doing alright.. ah who am I kidding? of course you're not.

please know that Jonghyun will forever be in our hearts. He was such a big inspiration to me. I remmeber when I'd listen to him all the way in middle school before I'd take a test. heh SHINee always eased my anxiety and stress. But now, it's not the same. All I hear is sadness and emptiness.

I will miss him. I know exactly what he went through and it's such a shame that I decided to stay. But the outcome is great. I got to meet my lovely girlfriend. ahah SHINee was the reason we met actually. Through a groupchat with weird fangirls who of course 'fangirled' over the fact that I was a guy. But my Love wasn't like them. Heh sorry I'm going off track here. 

But I'd just like to say that SHINee has been the reason for friendships and living. They all made us feel at home in places we'd never call home. They are the reason many of us are still here today.

SHINee will forever be 5.

Rest well, BlingBling. You did amazing.

1990-2017

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If you're wondering if I will continue this story...I'm not sure.

please tell me what you think I should do?

I had so many ideas but now, I honestly just feel so empty.

maybe as time passes I'll do it.

or I can change the ship and make a different story. And keep this one unfinshed? we'll see..

until next time.

message me if you're not feeling right or need someone to talk to. I may not reply right away but I will reply.