Sequel, people wanted to know what happened to Namjin, so here it is ^_^

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Namjoon always looked forwards to finding his mate. The thought of someone depending on him, someone he could protect and care for, it filled him with warmth. Growing up in a peaceful pack, surrounded by happy couples, it never failed to make him smile. He'd lost count on all the times he imagined himself holding a beautiful omega, caring for them, making them smile, and pretending to be interested in every little complaint they had, just because he loved them.
He had been searching ever since he, Yoongi and Hoseok decided to leave their parents' packs and start their own together. Yoongi had easily won the position as alpha, since Hoseok wasn't keen on responsibilities, while Namjoon wanted to give his future mate his undivided attention. The others frequently made fun of him, saying his image of omegas was ridiculous, and that most if them had their own free will and wouldn't need him all the time, and that he was an idiot, but Namjoon knew his mate was waiting out there. And he wasn't gonna rob them of their free will, come on!

When Taehyung had waltzed into their middle he had thought he was the one. A gorgeous, tiny omega, who timidly asked to join the pack, since he had nowhere else to go. Namjoon was ecstatic and did his best to subtly woo Taehyung, but it wasn't long before he realized Tae might not be the one after all. As soon as he began feeling comfortable in their middle, he turned into a snarky, demanding little brat. He never thought before speaking, he whined constantly, and Namjoon was pretty sure it was impossible to have that much energy. The other guys actually found the obnoxious omega endearing, and while he was cute and fun at times, he got on Namjoon's nerves almost just as much.

Hoseok seemed to have really found his partner in crime in Taehyung, and Namjoon had been so sure those two were gonna mate, but to his surprise it didn't go that way. One day a handsome young boy showed up, and demanded to be allowed in the pack. Yoongi was pretty wary of his attitude, but after he singlehandedly took down two stags he was allowed to stay. His name was Jungkook and he stared so much and so intensely at Taehyung, that no one was fooled. He had been an official pack member for approximately 3.45 seconds, before suspicious sounds began flooding out from Tae's and Hoseok's shared hut. Turned out Jungkook and Taehyung had met at the last full moon gathering, and so they were the first mated couple in their little pack.

Namjoon couldn't help but envy them. They were just so happy and cheerful, always walking around with stupid little smiles. He wanted that.

He tried doing what Jungkook had done and talked to every omega who seemed like his type at the full moon gatherings. But he, Yoongi and Hoseok had spend a good amount of time and energy on their reputation, making sure that everybody knew and feared them. This was mostly a good thing, since no one dared attacking them, but they had thought some wolves would seek their protection. This was not the case. Most of the omegas he talked to were too intimidated to even look him in the eyes.

When Jimin came around Namjoon almost lost his mind. Jimin was everything he had ever dreamt of and more. He was perfectly cute and timid and Namjoon wanted nothing else but to take care of this beautiful creature.

One look at Yoongi’s behaviour when Jimin was near him, and it all went out the window.

~~~

Namjoon knew he was a little desperate. He knew that he would never be able to force things between him and anyone, but he just couldn't help himself when Jimin told them about his omega friend in danger. He HAD to volunteer. He was at his breaking point and knew that he couldn't take one more night alone.

Namjoon ran to the Kim pack, imagining all the different ways this poor omega in distress would be thrilled to be freed, and love him forever. He should have known it was foolish, but Namjoon was stubbornly optimistic.

"Hello Namjoon! Is something wrong?" Kim looked extremely nervous behind his stiff smile. Namjoon smirked, enjoying this bastard's fear. "No, Yoongi is very pleased, and he will be taking Jimin as his mate. But know that we WILL attack next time you step foot on our land" Kim shuddered, but nodded frantically. "I'm here with a message for his friend"

"Message?" Kim looked suspicious. "What kind of message?"
"A goodbye message, since they will never see each other again"
Kim nodded and gestured towards one of the huts. Namjoon send him a final glare before going inside.

Nothing could have prepared him for the sight of Seokjin. It felt like a slap-in-the-face-knee-to-the-stomach combination as he laid his eyes upon the most beautiful creature he had ever seen. Seokjin was so delicate and slender, yet masculine and one look from those sharp eyes almost brought Namjoon to his knees, and he completely missed the threat, until...
"YOU!" Seokjin screeched and jumped off the bed, taking a very obvious fighting stance. "Jimin wasn't enough for you?! You came to take me too?!"
Namjoon was so shell-shocked by the fact that this omega actually thought he could fight him, that the words didn't register in his brain. Unconsciously he growled low in his throat and tried to influence the omega to be more submissive so he could talk to him, but Seokjin just let out a dry laugh. "Your alpha-crap won't work on me Namjoon, I have been exposed to that my whole life! You can't manipulate me!"
Namjoon had no idea what to do. Jin's hostile attitude was completely unexpected, and his beauty was extremely distracting, and Namjoon was so lost he just snapped. "Would you shut up?! I am not here to take you, I am here with a freaking offer for you to join my pack! Jeez, Jimin said you were nice"
Jin squinted his eyes and said "Why would I ever want to join your pack?"
"Uh, because your own ?" Namjoon's patience was faltering, but he couldn't stop himself from being impressed by Jin's completely fearless attitude. He was ready to fight, no doubt about that.
"Look, Jimin won't stay with us because of you, and we don't want him to leave, so the only option is for you to join us"
"How do I know Jimin is all right?!"
"You have no reason not to!" Namjoon was getting really impatient. Why wouldn’t he just cooperate?
"I have every reason not to! You took him! How do I know he’s even alive?!”

It took almost half an hour before Jin finally said “alright, then what if I choose to believe you?” Namjoon sighed in relief, ing finally.

“I already told you, we are offering you a place in our pack”

“And why would you do that? You don’t know me!”

“Well, we’ve all grown quite fond of Jimin, Yoongi especially, and none of us want’s him to leave. But he refuses to let you stay here alone, so either you come join us and we all live happily ever after, or Jimin gets back here and doom both of you to a life of misery. It’s your choice, really”

Namjoon wasn’t usually this hostile. He hadn’t meant to yell at Jin like that, but something about him just rubbed Namjoon the wrong way. Maybe it was because he looked and seemed like the perfect omega, and then suddenly attacked him like that. Namjoon had time and time again thought he found the perfect candidate for life long partner, only to have that illusion shattered. He was sick and tired of it.

He knew Seokjin was scared and alone. He knew that he feared for his friend’s life and well being. He KNEW all this, and he knew he should have been nicer to him, but he had just been so frustrating!

Namjoon spend the whole run back home convincing himself that he hadn’t been unfair to Jin. He could have just been a little less hostile, and everything would have been fine. He also tried desperately to erase the image of Jin’s fierce eyes and perfect features from his mind.

That was much harder than it should have been.

~~

When Jin walked into their camp, Namjoon almost cried with relief. Every second Jin didn’t show up in the past days had been torture for Namjoon. He had been so sure he scared Jin and ruined everything, and he had been unable to answer any of Jimin’s frantic questions. He was convinced that Jin would never show, and that they would lose Jimin as well, and he had been bracing himself for Yoongi’s wrath. That’s why, when the jaw-dropping gorgeous wolf had stepped into the clearing, he almost sprinted over to hug the living daylights out of it. Fortunately he restrained himself, as Jimin did just what he had almost done. Namjoon watched the two omegas hugging and crying, and if he hadn’t known better, he would have thought it was jealousy he felt. He wanted to love someone that much, to miss someone that much. But, that was ridiculous. He loved his pack-members like they were his brothers, and those were two omegas, come on.

He tried his best not to stare at the now , human Seokjin, as he heard Jimin wail “Oh thank god, I thought he hurt you or something!”. He would never admit that he had feared just that. “Nah, I just didn’t trust that weird guy you sent”

Namjoon felt his blood boil. That little…

~~~

Namjoon knew he was being unfair. He knew there was nothing wrong with Jin’s hunting skills, or his humor, and he more than knew that Jin’s cooking skills were out of this world, yet he felt like he had to criticize everything Jin did. It was as if by doing that, he could somehow neutralize the perfection that was Kim Seokjin. It annoyed him to no end how everything Jin did seemed to be right and perfect and how everyone adored him. Taehyung had practically adopted him as his mother already. Namjoon hated everything about it. Namjoon hated everything.

“Well then why don’t you cook your own damned food!” Jin screeched as he slammed his fist on the table and stood up. “Since you are so picky on every tiny detail, you do it better, you master of taste!” He then proceeded to violently collect dirty utilities from the table, and stalked away, head held high. Namjoon did his best to keep his face emotionless as he stared at Jin’s retreating back, a lump forming in his throat.

“Why do you always have to be so mean to him?!” Taehyung yelled as soon as Jin was out of hearing distance. Namjoon tried not to show how ashamed he felt. “I was just telling the truth” he said, looking everywhere but at Tae.

“Namjoon, we are all eating the same food. Everyone loves it but you. What is really wrong?” Hoseok said calmly, but looking quite frustrated.

“So what if I happen to have a different taste in food? Are you gonna judge me because of that?! Now, if you would excuse me, I am going to find something that is actually edible” And with that he ran off into the forest.

Namjoon might hate everything, but he hated himself the most.

~~

It really was like Jin was meant to be in the BTS pack. Namjoon silently watched from a distance as Jin smiled and laughed with every single member of BTS except himself. As he was BFFs with Jimin, they stuck together for the most part, but Namjoon had seen the vomit-inducingly sweet interactions between them all. Jin made flower crowns with Taehyung, tried (and failed) to teach Yoongi how to cook, had constant playful fights with Jungkook and even laid in the grass at night and told myths about the star constellations to a very interested Hoseok. He treated everyone like a younger brother, smiling fondly when they failed at something, and even convinced Jungkook to wash up in the lake when no one else (not even Tae) could.

Namjoon didn't know why his closeness to the others agitated him so much, he just knew that he wanted all of Jin's undivided attention. The only way he knew how to get that always wiped Jin's smile right off his face and he hated himself for it. Every time Jin looked at Namjoon his smile would fade. He would turn around, or pretend like Namjoon didn't exist, or they would get into an argument about something stupid and unnecessary. It was driving both of them crazy, but nobody seemed to know what they should do about it.

~~

Jin slept in the alpha hut with Yoongi and Jimin, but when the two omegas officially joined the pack everyone helped build a new one to them, even though Jimin still slept in the alpha hut for obvious reasons nobody mentioned. It was a good idea after all though, considering Yoongi and Jimin mated not two weeks later, and it would have been kind of uncomfortable sharing a hut with them then. Namjoon was happy for his friend, since everybody knew how much he cared for Jimin, and he seemed to smile a lot more with him around. But the jealousy was extremely hard to contain, and Namjoon began spending more and more time alone in the woods, avoiding the two happy couples and the one person he actually wanted to spend time with, but always ended up hurting.

It was on one of those occasions when Yoongi found him sitting by the lake and staring at nothing.

“Hey Joon, mind if I join you?” Namjoon grunted, and Yoongi took it as a yes. They sat in comfortable silence, before Yoongi said the last thing he ever wanted to hear.

“You made him cry this time Joon”

He knew he had stepped over the line calling Jin worthless, but he had never thought it would be that bad. Jin was so strong and so full of self-esteem.

Namjoon was so ashamed he couldn’t look at Yoongi. “Is… Is he okay?”

“No he is not, Jimin is with him. This has to stop Joon” It had been a long time since Yoongi had been this serious with him, and Namjoon knew he was right. He was always right, part of the reason why he was the alpha, and Namjoon was not.

“I know” he whispered, clenching his fists. “I just don’t know how”

“You like him” It wasn’t a question, it was a statement, and it finally made Namjoon look up. “What do you mean?!”

“I mean” Yoongi said very slowly, like he was talking to an eight year old, “that you are romantically interested in Seokjin. You two had a bad start, and now you don’t know how to approach him, also because he doesn’t fit your ridiculous expectations in an omega”

Namjoon was about to protest when Yoongi continued “Namjoon your endless quest of finding the perfect omega ended the moment you met him”.

That was absolutely true. He hadn’t even thought about searching for his mate in the past months, too caught up in Seokjin. And when he thought about it, he didn’t even want to. , he was really gone, wasn’t he?

Reality came crashing down on Namjoon and he buried his face in his hands. “Oh god”. Yoongi gave him some awkward pats on the back as he tried to calm down. “Oh god, I’m so screwed. I don’t deserve him after everything I put him through! He hates me!”

“You’re right” Yoongi said “you don’t deserve him. But you know who does? The old Namjoon. The one who was ready to give up everything when he found his mate. The one who wanted nothing but to dedicate his life to this one person and hold them and cherish them and protect them for eternity. Where is that guy, huh?” Namjoon honestly didn’t know. It was like he hadn’t been himself lately. He couldn’t remember the last time he laughed or even smiled.

“But Seokjin doesn’t want that. He’s so strong, he can take care of himself. He doesn’t need me”

“I used to say that about myself until Jimin showed up. Just because you can take care of yourself doesn’t necessarily mean you want to”

“But how do I even…”

“An apology is never a bad place to start”

~~

Namjoon knew he had to act now. He would not get a better chance, Jin was sitting all alone by the fire and everyone else was either too far away or too preoccupied by their mates to notice anything. Namjoon knew Jin was the one he wanted and he knew that nothing would happen until he stopped acting like a spoiled child, but he couldn’t get his feet to move. What if it was too late? What if Seokjin hated him forever? What if he only brought Jin more grief by doing this?

He was just about to run away screaming when Jin looked up to the sky. His face was almost glowing in the moonlight and he was so ethereally beautiful and Namjoon’s feet moved on their own. Suddenly he was at Jin’s side, and Jin looked up at him, his peaceful smile vanishing from his face. “What do you want?” he said, sounding more tired than anything.

“Uh” Namjoon said intelligently. Jin was kind of really distracting. “I uh… can i sit?”

Seokjin  stared. Namjoon had never asked him a polite question before and he was beyond confused. Namjoon took his silence as a yes, and took a seat besides Seokjin. His heart was beating like crazy and he knew he had to act fast before he passed out. “I’m sorry!” He blurted out, making Jin look even more surprised. “I’m sorry I… I don’t think you’re worthless. And yeah, I don’t hate your food either. It’s actually really tasty, and I don’t think you're a bad hunter either, or… or ugly or anything else I have said and…” He was rambling, but it was like he had opened a dam, and the words just kept coming.

“I never meant anything I said to you and I’m sorry I ever made you feel bad. I, uh, yeah” he ended awkwardly. A long silence followed, until Seokjin said a very quiet “thank you”.

Namjoon looked up and saw the faintest of smiles on Seokjin’s lips. But still a smile.

He made him smile.

“I knew you didn’t mean any of it, but it’s really nice finally hearing it from you”

“Wait you knew?!”

“Yeah, it was never really sincere insults, and you always criticize the things I am most certain there is nothing wrong with, like my food or my looks” Jin shrugged, like it was no big deal that Namjoon had been a jerk to him for months.

“But, you always got so mad?” Jin’s smile vanished, and Namjoon cursed himself. He did it again. “I figured you had some kind of reason, but it still hurt you know. That there was a reason you wanted to hurt me. So can I please finally know why?” Jin looked so vulnerable right then, and Namjoon just wanted to hug him forever. He swallowed the lump in his throat and tried to think of an answer that didn’t sound selfish and stupid, but he couldn’t ignore the truth.

“I can’t give you a straight answer. I’m sorry, I… I’ll try to explain” Jin looked at him expectantly, and it felt so weird, having a normal conversation with him. Or maybe not normal, but at least not an argument. “When I first saw you I thought you were the most beautiful creature I had ever seen. But then you got all hostile, and I have never been threatened by an omega in my life. I was so shocked and confused and I didn’t think about how scared you were. When you finally came here I was so happy, but I didn’t know how to act around you and…”

Namjoon did not want to continue, but he owed it to Seokjin so he took a deep breath and continued; “I was really attracted to you. More than I have ever been to anyone, and it confused me, because you are not my type at all, and so I tried pushing you away, but it didn’t work and… well yeah, I acted like a five-year-old and I’m sorry”

Namjoon took another deep breath and looked up. Jin was looking at him with an unreadable expression, but then a genuine smile slowly spread on his face, until he was grinning from ear to ear. Namjoon felt like he was being blinded. “You’re attracted to me? What, because I look good?”

“No, I mean yes, I mean no not just because you look good, you’re also really nice and- and caring and good and sweet and selfless and I…” Namjoon was silenced by the smallest of pecks on his lips. He blinked and looked stupid. Jin was so close and smiling so brightly and Namjoon felt like his life might be worth living again.

~~

Hoseok emerged from his hut, stretching and yawning and blinking sleep from his eyes. He was just about to proceed to the fireplace and lounge around until breakfast was ready, when he spotted the three couples already there, sitting all over each other. Well, Yoonmin and Taekook was, while Namjin was sitting really close and talking quietly, all goofy smiles. They hadn’t officially mated yet, but it couldn’t be much longer, judging by the that had built between them in the past months. Hoseok assumed this was the reason why they had been on each other's throats constantly. He redirected his steps towards the outdoor kitchen area, figuring he might as well get some breakfast going, since everyone else seemed preoccupied. He kicked a stone on his way, wondering why he wasn’t preoccupied.