THE GREAT UNKNOWN

Sometimes I wonder if I've become a different person somehow. It's exhilarating, but also terrifying. It feels like a part of me has become lighter, has maybe escaped me, and I also fear sometimes that I might reach that part of me again and the lightness... it'll be gone.

Is it normal, losing your breath so often? Is it unsafe, feeling so happy I feel like I could burst? How can someone cope with this? What do I do once it's gone? How can I feel happy again if I can't find its source? Will I feel empty? Won't I be the same as I was before?

I think... I feel I'm falling, diary, and I don't know whether it's safe or not where I'm going to land... if I'm going to land.

Will it be painful?