ALONE

has never been a pleasing word for me but for once

IT HAS BEEN

'cause it's way better than being

LEFT OUT

Because in being left out, you once had someone. I once HAD someone.

It could have been better if I could even atleast compete with my rival. But I just can't. Who am I compared to his dreams?

No matter how much I want to take Kris from his dreams. I JUST CAN'T. Because deep inside I know, that, is where he belongs.

This will be the last time I will cry for him. I am finally letting him go. I will keep all our memories in this little box beside the tree.

Our tree.

The tree who witnessed our love story, the tree who with every spring and fall sees us blossom and wilt. All these will be buried but will never be forgotten.

~AFTER 4 YEARS~

4 years ago I promised not to cry anymore, and I guess promises are indeed meant to be broken. I know, because since then, I've been coming back to that specific place and now I am on my way there.

It's where I reminisce, where I relive our memories.

Where I cry, for no one knows how many times.

Where I come back to find peace

'Cause I've found solitude there,

ALONE.

But not today

Because I can see a silhouette, a tall one

And as I come closer to tree the image grew more and more familiar

I stopped.

I can't take even a single step towards him

All of my emotions are overflowing

I don't know what to do

I don't know what to say

I don't know how to face him

I don't know if I can face him

But what can I do now?

Should I go back?

But why should I?

It's time to face him now

But what if he doesn't know me anymore.

Well that's too much

But what if?

Besides he's a star now

It won't be hard to forget a guy like me.

And as these ate me, I start to step backwards slowly. Trying to memorize his features though I know that even if he's not here again I will never forget how he looks like, never will I.

I was about to turn away but then I hear his voice. Then I hear his footsteps. Then I hear my heart thumping fast and loud, as if it knows who to beat for.

"Tao?" The way he calls my name makes it harder to look away.

"Kris" I said as tears ran down my cheeks, never stopping.

And as he enfold me in his arms, my sobs grew louder than I thought it ever could. All the longing, the love and every other emotion all pouring out at once.

" I never thought that I could ever see you  again. I thought I completely lost you. I thought, that... that you really did left me back then. I thought I'll be left out." Crying my heart out.

He pushed me away slightly, his hands settling on my waist.

"I wasn't gone. I never did leave" he said softly, smiling sweetly as his eyes sparkle from unshed tears.

"For I will always and forever will be right here." Tears slowly streaming down his face.

I look up to him, still crying.

"I'm right here" pointing to my heart.

"Forever and always"  as I place my hand above his as we feel my heart beat.