When you got too emotional again, and It feels like, you wanna drop everything out, decline what ever you will hear and leave them behind. 

What goes around will always consumed you. 

One thing I realized about staying at this company, is that, People will definitely throw you to the point of giving up. 

I, for how many months, is bearing a lot of pain. They see my smiles as often as i couldn't see. but they doesn't know what's up to me. 

For some point, I couldn't see the purpose of staying at this company. I wasn't  happy anymore. I couldn't feel safe in the arms of others 

and I felt that I don't belong with this group of genius people who garnered their knowledge through experience.