Because I am a fool.

Because I am really foolish.

I am afraid that my days would be getting sadder and sadder than this.

Sometimes, I wonder what might happen or might change if I had a more positive outlook on lives.

What if I were a bit more confident?

What if I weren't an anti-social?

What if I didn't have so many complexes?

Too bad, there is no what if. 

I am who I am. 

Just a stupid girl, a foolish one.

Each day is getting colder and colder. 

This emptiness in me is getting bigger.

Looking in the mirror, I can't see what has changed.

What has gone wrong? I asked myself. Nothing.

So why then? Why do I feel like crying everytime? 

Since when have I become addicted to all of these...

All the pains in my chest, the endless cryings,

Break up pains are long gone.

And it's not like a I am a teenager who is dying for attentions anymore or am I?

All my tears, all these sufferings...

Since when have I become liked this?

An empty soul, a crazy girl

Sometimes, the pains become too unbearable and the tears keep on flowing.

And sometimes, I wonder whether it's better if I am gone. 

Huh, Funny.

 I am too much of a coward. I don't have the courage to do it.

I want to end all of these yet I can't.

It seems like I have lost it.

Maybe I am a mental or maybe not.

Either way, maybe this is all I've got. 

People have no ideas how beautiful darkness is.

Most people can't understand and I can't seem to explain.

Leaving me wonder to death, whether anyone will remember-me-not...