-Key POV-
 

I woke up. Walked around the house, he wasn't home. He never was these days. He'd always leave so early in the mornings and come late at night after everyone (except me) was asleep. He always had that goofy smile on his face, just like the one that I had when I watch those JongKey moments on youtube that our fans upload. Just like the smile that I had when I secretly read our fanfictions. 

Yes, I Kim Kibum, SHINee's Key, am in love, with Kim JongHyun, SHINee's lead vocalist. 

But, Kim JongHyun, SHINee's lead vocalist doesn't know this. He ddoesn't know, that watching our fan videos on youtube made me smile like an idiot. He doesn't know that our couple fanfictions make me smile like an idiot. 

No one knows this, except for me, and my baby, my Taeminnie. He always tell me "Tell him, tell him!! I'm sure he'll like you back! I can just see the attraction, hyung! He's always so happy when he's around you...and when you two are together, it just looks so...natural..~"

My silly little Taemin, when he says it that, it sounded it so right. I decided. I was going to confess to my crush. But....he's never home. He barely asks to hang out anymore. I wonder why...but maybe,...I don't even want to know....
The possibilites scare me to death. 

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Today was a new day, I smiled, maybe JongHyun will be home today. My smile widended, just thinking about him. 

I'm really going to talk to him today

"Keeyyy!!!" I jumped.

He wrapped his strong arms around my tiny waist and lifted me in the air and spun me around.
 

Now, what's this all about...?

"j-jong..? what is it..? and put me down!!"

He did. I kinda wish he wasn't that obedient. 

"Did you read Seoul Times today..?" He hands squeezing my shoulder so tightly it hurt. But he was excited. and I didn't want to hurt his feelings. 

"No...just tell me. What is jonghyun-ah..?" I was running out of his patience. His eyes. That glint is his eyes...was it...love...?

God...no..please, don't..don't do this to me...

You're probably thinking, why I didn't think "He finally loves me. He loves me. he returns my feelings." But in those beautiful eyes...I wasn't there....

"Key..." He pulled me into a bone crushing hug

"Thankyou. for always being there.."

"w-what...? are you leaving or something?!"

I pushed him away...harsher than I thought I had the ability to do. I ran to the door, picked up the paper. 

And...

BAM

There goes my world....there goes my hopes....there goes my dreams....there goes my....my, not...Shin se's JongHyun...

"SHINee’s Jonghyun & Shin Se Kyung confirmed to be dating!"
 

The ing headline. 

My head is spinning around. I'm gonna fall. No. I can't. I can't...I have to be happy, happy for me. 

I faked a smile. Walked over to him. Hugged him. His scent....oh god, 
I quickly pull away

"Congrats JongHyun-ah, I'm so happy for you...anyway, i better go take a shower now..."

I ran. away from him. as fast i could. To the bathroom. 

In the bathroom. I cried. Cried. Cried. 

I didn't know how long I'd been in here....crying

Then, there was a knock on the door....I didn't know, didn't care, who it was. 

"H-Hyung..."

Oh, it's just TaeMin

"Hyung...what..." I heard him sigh. Loud. "Y-you heard...didn't you...?"

I look up at him, smiling bitterly. "Yeah...with his own damn mouth! with my own ing ears"

I covered up my ears with my hands. Sobbing like an idiot. Acting like a ing five year old. So pathetic. 

Somewehre between my chaos, I heard taemin lock the bathrrom door from the inside and walk over to him. He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me comfortly. 

I sobbed harder. Louder. In my dongsaeng's chest. i didn't care if I got his shirt dirty or woke up this others. 

"I was gonna tell him..." more sobbing "I was gonna ing tell him today taemin-ah..." louder sobs. "but.." sobbing again "he...he" my throat got stuck

"Shh...hyung. It's ok, please calm down. Please hyung.."

After maybe two hours. I stopped. finally stopped crying. I have to thank taeminie later for dealing with the side of me. 

I didn't know when, why, how, I fell asleep in his arms, and he fells asleep too, resting his head on my head. 

Neither of knew when MinHo opened the door. We didn't know when JongHyun invited his....girlfriend...over. We didn't know when Onew left out to buy groceries. 

I was sleeping, I want to sleep forever....

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2 months later. 

Ever since that day. I barely talked to JongHyun. Barely smiled. MinHo and Taemin were together. When this happened. How it happened. I had NO idea! I'm just as shocked as you probably. 

And Onew....he ignored JongHyun too, why, i Don't know. Don't care to find out either. Maybe he like Shine se kyung too, sort of like a love triangle...? I mean, we didn't loose that many fans so....yeah anyway~

I'm like an outsider now. The only person I talk to open heartedly, smile for open heartedly is my baby, my TaeMin. I cooked for him, i shopped for him. he kept me occupied.

Yes, I was still in love with JongHyun, but there is nothing I can do about it. 

This is it. There are no more new JongKey fanfiction anymore. No more couple fanvids. This is it. No more JongKey. 

Just....JongHyun x Shin se Kyung...?

-THE END-