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to: no one // from: Anonymous

I know this might already be a common thing that most of you can relate to, but you know what hella hurts? When you see your supposed lover being all active in another place with another lover of his while he barely even comes onto your own place anymore. I mean, I know that he's busy irl as well. He himself has told me that he'll probably need to go on a hiatus but along with that he also told me he'll try to come on as much as possible. Of course, that unfortunately isn't the case (I'm assuming he's not the most active either at the other place), but would it be that much of a bother to at least stop by and drop a short message even if it's for a minute or two, when he has enough time to log on to his other accounts? I'm not trying to be selfish and I'm trying to be as understanding as I could but it still hurts, especially when he's a long-time friend of mine that I treasure so deeply. He has proven to me several times before that he does come back but he's been gone for quite a while now and after seeing that he's still alive but at another place it's dampening my spirits. I just don't want this relationship to turn into one of regret. I'm probably starting to sound overly dramatic and exaggerative. Sorry for the long-ish rant. . . . C