rap monster slowly  approach to mia 's bed and sit beside her.she look to the sleeping figure.

 her eyes is swallon and red. and dry tears  are on her cheeks. her hands  are clenched to sheets.

he  raised his hand and softly touch to her cheek.

"mia "he choked with his first word.

"ı am so sorry.. so sorry. it is all my fault.  ı am .. le.. ader. I shoul  stop all of this. how can ı believe him. you can never be a person like he say. how can ı be soo fool ." tears drob fall from his cheek and sobb hard " ı should stop them.  ı was the one give them order. ı was the one give you to them , left you to their mercy.... ı am so sorry mia " he cry. he softly her hair before he hesitate  like if he touch her  ,she could be hurt again

he hold her hand with his .he feel so disgusted. he didnt really think all of this back then.he just left with bts 

after bts learn the truth . he didnt able to sleep  even a little bit. he keep hearing  her  begs. he lay down beside her and take her between his arms hesitantly. she move to  him unintentionally. he know he have no right to be near her or even breath the same air with her. 

"you say we were your family  we were your brother. you are like my little sister mia. how can  ı say you a sl*t. how can somebody like you be .. " he sobbed "ı let them hit you. j-hope .... "he  hug tighter to mia . his tears are falling " he t..touch you. those bastard touch you . ı ... didnt do anything  . ı just watch "he her hair.

"ı just watch them and left you   .... if lay wasnt there " he choked with a loud sobb.his heart crush even with the thought. he hug her even tighter

" ı miss you mia. we miss you  "

he feel a movement between his arms . his grib around her losen  a little bit . he look down and meet with mia's teary eyes .opened eyes .she try to move back but he hold her . he feel like if she back away , she wont came near to him again. now she is so close to him that her face is near his chest "mia ı was.. " he stutter . " ı was .. "he dont want to scare her or make her feel insecure . he have no right to be near her  and there he is hugging her in a her bed.

"ı was just .. "

"ı didnt do anything weird . mia ı swear . ı didnt " he say nervously and quickly

she woke up when he her hair. she heard every word. her heart feel more hurt and somehow ..... calm

she listen his every word that filled with guilt . she know  he feel guilty because he was  the one give them order. she feel angry toward him .

"ı feel hurt because bts was the one did this not some other stranger "she speak.he felt how she dissapointed by them. his grib  around her losen and he look at her eyes

"and .. and you told them . you left but ..but ..ı know  the thing that other gangsters tried to do was.."

"ı didnt want it . you have to believe me .ı didnt .ı didnt want something like that mia" namjoon  say desperatly

"it was.. not your ...fault. "mia speak

she cant forgive them yet but she want to forgive  for the first time after she heard him

"ı know you are not a person like that namjoon "she know her for a long time . she know he would never meant something like that. 

a tear fall form his eye .her heart is too kind for him after all of this 

she lean forward  to him.  he think it happened unintentionally  and try to back away but mia snuggle to him  .his hand stay in the air  as he dont know where to put them. he cant adjust the situation. but when she hug him lightly. he put his hand down hesitantly . and he heard mia 's voice

" I ..... I miss you guys  . ı miss you too "