JACKSON’S POV

It’s my third day home and I’m spending so much fun time with my parents, of course with Mark in the picture. Our groupchat never ceased to bore me with pictures and funny stories; even the younger members in Thailand are having so much fun.

I went to the balcony where the lighting is good and shot a selca, I didn’t even know what’s in my mind but it’s been bothering me.

Me: *sends selca*

My love Jaebum hyung: hehe <3 when are u going back?

Me: in 2 days hyung ;_; how r u?

My love Jaebum hyung: I’m fine but i know someone who isn’t

I put down my phone, scratched my head and pondered. Do they know something I don’t? Mark and Jaebum have been sort of odd lately, Jinyoung too. Did I make a mistake? I’m sure I didn’t. Did Jinyoung tell them both about the incident last December? I gasped. My heart began pounding so loud I could almost hear it. I’ve been trying to erase that incident on my mind but something’s coming back. My feelings?

I held unto my phone and stared at my KKT conversations. It’s been a while since I talked to him...should I...

Me: I miss you

Oh my gosh, I didn’t mean to send it. My hands were trembling so bad but I had to hold unto my phone longer to check if he replies.

2 minutes...3 minutes...4 minutes...my eyes were still staring on my phone and I couldn’t hold it any longer, I’ve to make excuses.

Me: wrong send, sorry ;___;

                        Me: it was for jaebum hyung, he’s flooding me w/ msgs

Okay, that’s better. He should be replying by now.

KATALK! KATALK!

Nyoung: it’s okay

Oh my! Thank heavens he’s not angry. I sighed in relief and continued the convo.

Me: when are you going back to seoul? Are u alright?

Nyoung: by tomorrow... Yes I’m fine

Me: oh...alright, see u by then ;-)

I put my phone down, smiling, and stretched my tired body.

“Why are you smiling like that?” Mark asked behind me. I jumped in horror; I wonder how he manages to creep like that every time. “Are you inlove?” He smiled while wiggling his eyebrows.

“What?” I furrowed my brows. “I don’t even have time to meet with girls! Haha...what are you talking about.” I replied.

Mark came closer to pat my shoulder. His mischievous smile showing again.

“Reality check, love has no gender.” He winked and went inside the house. I seriously have no idea on what he’s babbling about; of course, we can love whoever our hearts yearn but can they just tell me directly? I got no time to read between the lines.

Night approached and my head’s still dizzy from analyzing my friends’ behaviors. I ate fast, kissed my parents goodnight, smacked Mark who was busy playing on his phone and jumped on my bed to sleep.

“Jinyoung...can I...” I stared at his sad face and shared his pain. I looked at his tearful eyes that didn’t look directly at mine, his nose red with all the crying, and his lips. I couldn’t stop looking at his lips, his pinkish, plump lips.

I didn’t know what pushed me but it’s too late to back out now. I closed my eyes and kissed him. He didn’t move, he kissed back. I could feel his hot tears flowing, my cheeks got wet by his tears, the tears I want to stop from falling. We didn’t stop kissing, I held his waist as he smoothly touched my hand.

My eyes opened in shock and I was drenched in sweat, I dreamt of it again, I dreamt of him again and I don’t know what to do.