'It's not me! It's not me!' The look in Seungri's eyes would follow him to the grave, that flash of betrayal quickly covered with anger was haunting him even now. 'But I'm not doing this...' He wanted to scream, to cry, to anything that might reassert control of his own body. He wanted to erase the look of disappointment from Seungri's eyes

This isn't who he wants to be. This isn't where he wants to be. But this is who he wants to be with.