Sometimes life just doesn't turn out the way you planned.  But, when one door closes, another one opens.  If you can't be an idol, why not do the next best thing and be a manager? Either way, you're still getting close to your favorite idols and you're still in the business. The only issue is getting outted as a fangirl and getting fired.  But, as long as you're not obvious in public, no one will know, right? . . . Right