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For all my DBSK oneshots, go to my livejournal at devilaugh.livejournal.com. Though they are all OTP type fics and mostly oneshots. The quality of those fics are significantly better than the stuff I write on AFF.  

Ongoing

Why people hate your story- Are you not fortunate enough to have that many subscribers because your plot is weak and your fic is going nowhere? Or do you find yourself with numerous of subscribers and avid readers, but also boatloads of people telling you that your characters are flawed and you write like English isn’t your first language? Do you write well but have no one interested because people here don’t understand quality?

I can tell you why your story is not as successful as you wish it was.

After getting over 80 friend requests throughout the year (a lot considering how anti-social I am), I finally made it an actual fanfic. Just subscribe to it and leave me alone. Warnings! General profanities and put downs.

 

Tattooing the Pain Away (Indefinite Hiatus)- Jaejoong feels pain in his back, and he doesn't understand why. He can only assume he will die soon. Changmin begs that he take care of himself; he can't bear to lose Jae. Yunho and Yoochun suggest he go wild and end life with a bang. Junsu just wants him to stay safe. Jaejoong does the only reasonable thing...

I love the idea I have for this fic. It is an AU fic with different creatures. There aren't any female leads and it is more of a deep friendship story than a love story between guys. It's about the five members of DBSK being a family even when they aren't related, not the five people with DBSK's name hating each other over a girl. There is a cuddly CatMin, and lots of skinship. A lot of it.

 

Completed

This is Utopia- The absolutes- There have never been enough food or water, money is scarce, music and art does not exist in his area. Marriage is certain to happen. This is the Utopia Jaejoong knows, but it is a lie.

This is the first fanfic I wrote while actually trying to make it sound good and planning the chapters. It is a dystopian story, influenced by novels such as George Orwell's 1984 and Animal Farm, Charles Dickens' Tale of Two cities, Cory Doctorow's Big Brother, forgot author's Truesight, Pretties (the bits that I did read), Kurt Vannegut's  novels, Ray Bradbury's Fahrenheit 451, and so many more. Also, basic social studies and biology/chemistry classes. The idea behind the fic is that if one day the earth were to have a supreme ruler (Key in this case), would everyone be happy? My answer was yes, and no, and all of the above, and that is not even an option.

Based off of a oneshot in One last Song Series, C0-PAN10N, which was written for school.

 

These are my first two fics. They , but I am proud of them in a way. I wrote them back when I thought fanfics were good.

Push and Pull- You have known Jaejoong since you were just a little child.Your relationship was weird. You called him Oppa, and he called you Noona, but he was older. But like all girls, you matured faster, and somehow, your feelings for him did too. You loved him so much, you pushed him towards his love and happiness. When he couldn't have it, you pulled him back to yours.

I wrote this because a wedding scene in a fic I read seemed really flawed, and I wanted to rewrite it based on the idea that the girl loves Jaejoong but is willing to give him up for his own love. I made a lot of mistakes because it was my first time writing a fanfic, so I am currently revising it. Push and Pull Revised Version.

MidNightmare- If you are reading this you have just entered NIGHTMARE and chances of escaping are currently at 0%. You have until MIDNIGHT to crown me as your DICTATOR or it is GAME OVER. Please enjoy your stay~♥ Warning! Character deaths, psych problems, abuse, gore, mass murder, violence

Push and Pull took me 9 days to write, and two days later I started this one. This is my most creative fic so far, and for that I am proud. I still hadn't grown much as a writer since it had only been 11 days. I look back and notice how flawed the fic was and how exaggerated some things were, but I still like it enough. 

Oneshots

 

In Heaven- Without the love of his fans, Jaejoong would die. With that thought, Yoochun protected Jaejoong too much, and he ended up dying anyway. Warning! character death, drug abuse

This is my favorite oneshot I have written so far. It is the type of fanfic I want to read and I am glad I wrote. There aren't any females, it is just Jaejoong and Yoochun (and a ninja!su) working together in the entertainment world, struggling to be successful. Heavily influenced by the JYJ song In Heaven and the DBSK lawsuit.

A Dream we don't want to come true- When the news come out almost all of Korea cries. Even though after the breakup Korean fans stopped listening to DBSK, this hits everyone hard. The one to suffer the most is Jaejoong because he is the one to blame. Warning! Broken!YunJae, stalkerish Jae, Character Death, alcoholism

It is based off of a dream I had, hence the title. In the dream Yunho killed himself because Jaejoong kept pestering him. The oneshot kind of took a different direction, and now I'm thinking of maybe continuing it.

The Harp-  So it's true, he thought, it's really true.

This Oneshot about young G-Dragon was a school assignment. Write about the above picture. The picture really says it all. I got a 100 on the story, if that matters. There is a fairy named Bom and a dog named Gaho.

Jjongie said "No!" - “Jjongie don’t you understand, your wife, I want to be.” I sang to him.  “Jjongie said ‘no!’”

Let's start with K-pop.

I got into Kpop late 2009 or early 2010. I remember that I was first in denial that Korean music could even be considered good because I was delusional that Jpop was super cool and good. Oh, how my thoughts have changed. The first kpop group I liked was DBSK. They were the first group I heard of that stuck in my mind. Someone had commented that "____ group is good and all, but DBSK are the best group in all of Asia." It sounded so arrogant and exaggerated. I listened to "Wrong Number" and couldn't understand anything. It all sounded so weird to me and I chose to dislike the song and the group. Yet somehow a few months later I was giving them another chance and strangely enough fell in love with them through "Balloons" of all songs. 

My reasons for DB5K being my ultimate bias group is that they really did have god-like talent as a five person group. On their own and in their own respective group, JYJ and TVXQ! are still amazingly talented and successful, but I often cry thinking about how much more amazing some of their songs would sound as five. Listening to the acapella of some of their songs -ugh, my heart feels so satisfied yet sad. My personal favorite acapella is "Begin". I heard them sing it on a random Japanese show and it blew my mind. More reasons for loving DBSK. They were old school, like R&B and cheesy outfits and dancing. It's the pop I grew up with. And their dynamics as I team or family are really great. The family aspect of their group is adorable, funny, and super believable. It's a little sad reading DBSK fics that involve the family having a divorce.

Other than my ultimate dead bias group, I tend to like the other groups pretty equally. I don't feel strongly for girl groups much at all except for the pretty popular groups. I liked 2NE1 a bunch, probably were my favorite girl group. It's for the common reasons. I like catchy music and I hate the cute girl concept. I also tend to dislike when girl groups all sing together like many SNSD songs (many, not all). It's odd, since amazing harmony was what DBSK was known for, but when it comes to female voices, I dislike it. I also hate falsetto except for certain singers.

Since I really respect the singing aspect of a group (it's my number one priority when determining whether I like a group or not) I usually don't get into rookie groups until they show some improvement in their singing. And I am quick to voice my opinion. It's generally objective like "the MV was creative and entertaining and the members are handsome. Since they are only rookies, it is expected that they will need to continue working on their singing and get comfortable in front of the camera." It's really hard for me to "fangirl" in the manner of losing my common sense and words. 

At the same time, I prefer powerful vocals to soft vocals, so those really awesome Indie bands that my Maria loves, I don't really care about. Those soft, guitar strumming, sunshine, coffee songs bore me. I get it, they're talented and creative, but I like Kpop. I like that catchy tune. I love those funky outfits. And really, anyone can sing on one or two notes softly while playing a guitar with mediocre skill. 

I really hate SM as a company, but I'll admit that their music is generally pretty good. They've done a great job production wise with EXO and whichever groups have come after, almost to the point that it sickens me. The marketing aspect. 

Since DB5K is no longer a thing, I consider myself to be a fan of kpop in general with no strong connection to any one fandom. So it kind of annoys me when I see comments on videos like "Hi, I'm a ____ supporting ____" when a group makes a comeback. Like, I'm sorry, do we really need to label ourselves as one fandom when we are clearly enjoying the music of another group? I always felt like you should only use your fandom name when trying to clearly support the group and differentiate them. Like, if you were a fan watching in the stands of the idol Olympics, would you hold up a poster "_____ support _____"? When it comes to the enjoyment of kpop music, you are no fandom but the kpop fandom as a whole!

Once I started college, I stopped listening to Kpop a lot. First it was because I didn't want to bother my roommate, then it was because I didn't have friends on campus to share my hobby, then I just stopped caring. Again, I'm not a fangirl. I like the music, but I'm not a braindead fan like some people seem to be. These days I will watch the new MV for groups I know if I see the song has come out, but I no longer go out of my way to learn new groups, download whole albums, and watch variety shows. I'm totally a casual fan. 

 

Now about my taste in fanfics.

I've come to conclusion that I really only want to read fics about males. I'm the type of person that really hates most female characters portrayed in stories. As a female, I am very critical of my gender and how we are portrayed. As sort of a feminist, I get defensive when all I read about of girls getting weepy because of love and some man (or another woman I suppose) and becoming helpless as she faces her life as an orphaned slave with a huge debt to a vampire clan and whatnot. Even in the average school setting, I feel so disgusted reading about girls that only want a boyfriend or girls that have it set in their minds that they will not date but love prevails and somehow they are swept off their feet by someone. I am the most aromantic person when it comes to women being in love.

At the same time, I really hate seeing men portrayed effeminately just to fulfill their role as a bottom male. Uke. Cat. Submissive. Whatever term. Changing the gender of a person does not change how I feel about the action. I hate girls who act like that and I who men that act like that. There are extents where it is cute, like in a I-want-to-mother-you sort of way. Just as I said in a discussion group once, it's not that I hate flamboyant gays, it's just that they are acting in a manner I hate people acting in, male or female. 

Usually I read DBSK fics that center around Jaejoong. Somehow he became my bias. I'm the type of person who latches onto a bias and chooses to unleash all my affections onto him. So for most groups (almost all other than DBSK) I only have one or two biases that I like to read fanfics about. I am open to all pairings as long as my bias is in the pairing. But actually, I really love stories without romance the most. AU stories are the best. But if it has romance, I like it to be mature (in all manners of the word) and have plot. I tend to just scroll through PWP because really, it loses its flare after a couple hundred reads. I really love cliche ideas in fics, but I just wish people could write the better. Luckily livejournal does have a few gold writers. I don't read much on AFF anymore because somehow just being on AFF makes the quality of the fic seem worse to me. Seriously. A fic I can read on both AFF and LJ will read worse to me on aff. It's a mental thing I've put myself in.

Also, I hate searching for fics on AFF so much. It feels like such a hassle to me.

I really don't read fanfics anymore. I maybe stopped during my freshman year of college? My parents got me a Kindle for Christmas my first year, then I had access to actual books. I was immediately drawn into all the fantasy books I previously had missed in my local library. About a year after I also discovered a whole slew of LGBT books that were fascinating. I still prefer reading male-centric books, and I am still highly critcial of how females are portrayed, but I might be getting better? Or worse, who knows. 

I've also started reading fanfics on AO3. I prefer reading the gen fics, or ones tagged "original work", but I have been reading some Kpop ones recently, such as ones centered around BTS. I don't actively search out fics for fandoms, I use specifci tags for things I want to read about such as "vampires" or "angst". 

 

About WPHYS.

I state in the foreword of WPHYS that I started the "story" because I had too many people friending me and I wanted to revise the blogs I had written before. I got into fanfics pretty quickly after getting into Kpop. At first I loved everything I read, but quickly I started to dislike the quality of the winglin stories I was reading. After moving to AFF, I collected some of my thoughts and made blogs about them. At the time, I was only 14, so I hope people can forgive me for my arrogant attitude and not so helpful rants and advice. I started the WPHYS story a year later. I'm not saying the maybe 70 "friends" I made are a lot, but I really am not a social person. I like to talk and rant and blog, but I don't care about others. Making it a story made it feel more impersonal. 

So even though I often talk about wishing people would stop writing like 12 year olds and how I hate certain things, I'm not completely a mean person. Like, I kind of do have a conscience. So if it seems that my advice or approach is harsh, it probably is, but I'm sure I do have some good stuff in there as well. If people get over the fact that, yeah, I'm calling you out, then maybe they will finally get better. And to all the 12 and younger, honey, you're twelve. In two years -no, one year, you will realize that you really did at writing. I went through it, others went through it, so will you. 

But by actually reading WPHYS, you'll see that I'm not that harsh. I just harp on beginner things that have nothing to do with your ability to write but more with the dynamics of fanfics. I'm really about the presentation or the attempt. I talk about things like production and stuff. It really doesn't matter about your skills of writing in that area. I give very friendly advice to Non-English writers and I give better advice to English writers (English being the only language I can say I speak and write fluently, though Korean, Japanese, and Spanish are getting there). 

Trust all the people that have subscribed to the story. It's not just me saying "LOOK AT ME, I HAVE SO MANY SUBS!" I never thought that WPHYS would ever get this popularity. But clearly these people agree with at least some of the things I have said. They comment and seem like nice people, who am I to judge that all these nice commenters are actually other rude and obnoxious attention seekers here to hate on the lesser writers? Not that I am condoning bandwagon jumping, but at least give it a chance before you hate it. As I say, "Always read chapter one." Though it has been a few years, so chapter one does not reflect my views as clearly as late. 

 

About my personal life.

I've lead a pretty normal life so far. My mother is white, my father is Indian, so I've grown up with that. I'm not religious and I'm a rather liberal person when it comes to many issues. Though not all. I have a sister eight years older than me. I graduated from the University of Texas at Austin and with a BS in Petroleum Engineering. I know, in my future I will literally be mother nature. Hey, it was not my idea. 

I am a blackbelt in Taekwondo (a third dan) but did not continue in college. As a kid I was a rather violent person, often hitting people, but after taking up TKD I stopped doing that as my hitting abilities actually started to really have consequences. Check out my comic blogs for more "Imma blackbelt" jokes. 

In real life, I am the friend that gives advice or teaches or something. It sort of reflects me on aff I guess. I am as blunt as I am here but slightly more awkward because I think way faster than I speak so my words can get messed up. Among my friends I was always the meanest I suppose, but still one of the most reliable and responsible. I'm the one friends call when in an emergency or there is something that needs to be done.

Most things I can laugh off or work myself around, but there are things that I hold grudges over. If I feel betrayed, I lash out. 

The weirdest things inspire me to write fics. I tend to write down a small part of the idea and come back to it later to develop. I want my fics to be the most original, the strangest, differently written, and unique. I like to challenge myself with my writing. I'm not satisfied with adequate (as I am about many things in life). I'm a slow starter, but once I know what I want, I type away. Sometimes if I don't like something, I won't post it or I'll stop halfway through. Though occasionally I'll find those half-written fics and finish them in amazement at how well I think they sound. It's weird to see my own writing evolve over a short span of time (though I think it is getting worse from being out of practice). Each thing is an evolution in my writing and myself. 

My best fics are generally sci-fi or fantasy (imo). I heavily use reality as a factor in my stories. If not that, then dark or sarcastic humor in my many cracks. If it is a comedy or fluffy story, okay, those can be half-assed. I almost only write DBSK fics, but I have written one or two EXO and BAP fics. I would love to write some VIXX (Leo) or Teen Top (Niel). Definitely some Block B (Zico). One day, but not now. Oh, and I have random SHINee fics from back when they were the big thing. Just crack I think. I basically stopped writing fanfics after a small series based on my freshman year roommate's love life. 

My hobbies are reading, nail art, video games, and entertaining myself on the internet. I have become a particularly large consumer of translated webnovels (Chinese, Japanese, and Korean). Honestly, I am probably reading at least 100 different stories all at the same time. Waiting for updates, or simply recharging on a particularly ***** book. 

Um, I'm a night person. So bad that even if I've had no sleep, I'll stay up until the sun rises. Sometimes if it wasn't for the lulling silence of my room and warmth of my blankets, I would never sleep. Oh well, more time for me to be on the internet and read. I am a cat person. I am afraid of large dogs, falling from high heights without some sort of safety, and fire/really hot things. What else? My three sizes? No? Guess that's enough for now. 

 

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