So,

I had another dream, and this one got real personal. 

In my dream, I went to a SHINee concert, and I remember I was so happy and ecstatic that I was there, and it was a small venue so I got to see them up close. I remember I was able to see Minho, got a selfie with him, and talked to him a bit.

It was my first SHINee concert that I went to, so I was beyond the moon.

However, I remember I felt a void while I was at the concert. It was weird, I mean, it was a SHINee concert after all, how could I feel sad right? 

I remember, I asked Minho what it was like to just perform with 4 people on stage, and he said it was weird and unsettling, but they continued on to continue his legacy. 

I knew in my heart, Jonghyun wasn't there.

Honestly, when I woke up, I felt that void, but I also felt reassured? In my dream, I felt like it was them trying to reassure me, that yes Jonghyun wasn't physically present, he was still with them, and will always be. 

* Remember *

It's important to know there's always someone you can talk to if you're feeling depressed, there's the suicide line. If you really do feel your depression is bad, don't feel bad about getting help. There are many ways to get help. But the first step is to let someone know.