Being unable to be online for more than a week is a terrible thing. Being unable to sit in front of the computer screen even just for once is an unimaginable experience. To be unable to visit all my accounts is a nightmare!!! /screams/

The year 2015 just started but hell, I've gone downs already. The starting of my year is a ruin. Pitiful me. /sings IU's Pitiful/

Right after Kyungie-oppa's birthday which I celebrated with other EXO-Ls, most things went messy.

1. We had our first field study episode in the school of the other town next to us. I was so happy and excited that time, I was so hyped up. But I didn't notice when did I lose such a precious thing. This is the second time I lose a gift sincerely given to me. T^T

A month ago, I lost the keychain given to me by one of my oppas when they came home from a navigation trip. And now, I lost another keychain. Keychain with Soo's image in it. /wails/ Aside from being a Kyungsoo keychain, it was given to me by my unnie so it has a sentimental value.

A KYUNGSOO KEYCHAIN + SENTIMENTAL VALUE = I JUST LOSE IT?

DOUBLE KILL ME NOW. T^T

2. After classes, I went to the only Kpop Store in our town with an oppa to buy the similar good (minus the sentimental value) But the stock is out especially the EXO goods. They don't know if they'll have the same goods if the next delivery (they also don't know when will be) comes.

So unfortunate of me. :3

3. I got insomnia. I couldn't sleep because I feel guilty. I keep on thinking why I didn't take good care of the things i was given. :( I lose it in a blink of an eye without even noticing. T^T Whenever I do something wrong that guilts me, something bothers me or something is lacking. I couldn't sleep. T^T

4. Our Instructor to me and my friends:  "Be mature and act like one! You need to be most especially because of your chosen course!"

Us: (in our mind) we never chose this. =_______=

IDK anymore. Playing around is our life.

5. I'm getting more forgetful. I often forget things easily. Lucky my friends are soooooooo patient. HAHAHA. I'm so sorry :3 maybe I'm just too preoccupied. Stop hitting me 'kay? Sadist. #________#

6. DRY EYES IS NOT GOOD. Good thing it isn't that serious. I got scared though.

7. My crazy instructor gave us tons of requirements. I'm somehow lucky to finish all of those before deadline (which is the day just after she gave it)   :D I still got insomnia so it's not a problem being sleepy. LOL. I'm just hella tired.

8. In charge of the booth! "Brunei's Culture"  :) Excited to do and paint the props. *_____*

9. Not long after losing keychain, I lose my handkerchief which was given to me by my father before going back to the province. T^T My inability to sleep got worse. I'm worse. T_______T

10. MIDTERM EXAMINATIONS! It started on Monday.

(Where I nearly cried because I can't answer one out of four Math problems worth 8pts each showing your solution. T^T Goodness, i was left behind alone that time. My friends are only like: Aww. She's about to cry.. She's red. Look at the owl. Coooo. You can do it! Go!  And  I'm only like:  i wont cry! And... :( Yeh. I can do this. I'll finish this you'll see.)

 Just as I entered the room during these days, my friends made fun of me because I look like a 'zombie with chubby cheeks' and I look really unpleasant. =___________=

I  don't believe them. They're just that mean to me. ×____×

I'm just a young girl who got dark circles because I lack sleep and I'm really tired. I admit I'm haggard but not a zombie! >_______<

FYI: I have been getting sleep of 5 hrs now. I'll be better. You'll see. I'll complete 8 hrs soon!

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Even if most things aren't good these days, I think having Pope Francis in our country is the best happening this entire week. Though I didn't see him in person for we aren't in Manila anymore and Iloilo isn't in his schedule, I still felt blessed. And I almost cried because I feel light watching him in the TV. IDK, but maybe his humble personality is his magic and charms. Most people who saw him, cried, and maybe if I did too, surely I got tears flowing out my eyes after a long time of not crying. VIVA IL PAPA!

I pray for fortunate, safe, happy and fruitful year for everyone. I wish things will get better. ^.^