wow so i know i havent posted or commented or done anything really in a long time but i honestly dont think i will be anymore. ever.

a lot of things have happened and i just am not doing well mentally and i feel like physically my health is deteriorating too. life is a , and i need more strength to counter that.

my writing always looks like crap to me, so of course i wont be writing anymore. i will be reading things now and again, so dont you worry. i will be on once in a while at least.

im sorry everyone for possibly disappointing you. i just dont find a point in trying to write crap and act happier when all it does is hurt me even more. im tired and im sorry :\