\( ` ~ ` )/  I'm in a conflicting stage right now. (.___.)

And . . . 

it's . . . 

because of . . . . 

THOSE TWELVE FUDGIN HOT/CUTE/Y ALIENS ALSO KNOWN AS EXO OMFG WAAAAH. ≧◡≦

Hahaha. So anyways, this might not be a really big issue but to me it seriously is. Because five months ago, I was against them (yeah, no kidding), I mean, I love SMTOWN and every SM Artist but seriously, I'm envying EXO because my little SuJu-umma and SHINee-umma instincts are kicking in. At first, I think they're being compared to Super Junior too much for my liking (yeah, I'm such an overprotective umma over my SuJu babies haha) and they're overshadowing their sunbaes. Second, they've been hanging around too much with f(x) that my SHINeeeffects feels are raging and protesting haha. And thirdly, they're kinda overrated and I previously thought that their songs are weird and too brusque-like for my liking.

I also refused to watch any of their MVs and stuff (yeah, I'm kinda bad to them before). To put it short, I disliked them before. No, I do not hate them, that's such a strong word, I just . . . dislike them, I suppose. I dislike them but if they win something, then it's fine by me because I'm sure they deserved it.

Then came a time I almost came to love EXO earlier. There's woori Mimi's debut song, Rewind. I loved it to bits seriously, and surprisingly, the addition of Chanyeol and Tao in the song actually added up to it. At first I was fine with all that (lol, I even spazzed a bit when Chanyeol's rap came in because even if I wasn't a fan then, his voice is plain eargasm haha, and my EXO-L blocmate was like, "WTH, wasn't I supposed to be the one spazzing?" haha xD)  but then some EXO-Ls had the nerve to comment on the video itself that they're just there watching it because of the EXO members. Of course I'm offended and I shut myself off once again to EXO. טּ_טּ

But then came MAMA 2014. I was searching up SuJu on YT in hopes of them attending the event but instead I found some EXO vids. Then I saw this one about Chanyeol supposedly tired and all and looked like he was puking. Of course, since I'm an SM stan and even though I didn't like them, I checked the video out. 

The moment I saw Chanyeol looking so, so tired and all, I felt pity and sad. I knew the scandals EXO went through and I emphatize with them, since SuJu experienced the same thing and even if I'm a new ELF, it still hurts to have the members leave. So yeah, I suddenly found myself searching up on their MAMA performance to focus on Chanyeol and assess his condition if it's worse onstage or something, and then . . .when Chanyeol's part came in I was like,

|˚–˚|

(ﾟヮﾟ)

And I found myself clicking up that replay button again and again and again. Overdose is the first song of theirs that I liked and I downloaded it and played it every night. Then I thought, "if this song's good, their other songs might be good too, right?" so I went online and downloaded a few more songs then listened to them, too.

And I knew my instincts were right, they do have awesome songs. And then I started listening to their more famous songs like MAMA and Growl and I was like, "duuude I missed out a lot". And since I'm an Aff(x)tion, I also watch their vids and there's one there of Chanyeol and Sulli (CHANLLI!!!) and so, I checked it out. And omg Taelli's my #1 OTP and all but fudge, Chanyeol and Sulli oozes chemistry. So yeah, I checked their vids and then of course, I visited AFF to fulfill my Chanlli feels and KA-BOOM!

I officially fell in love with Park Chanyeol (and Chanlli). (─‿‿─)

HAHAHA AND NOT TO MENTION EXO TOO HAHA. I slowly began to like them. And I began to have this empty feeling because I wasn't able to be there right from the start when Luhan and Kris are still there . . . (⊙﹏⊙✿)   And the thing is, I've began to grow EXO-umma instincts that made me irked at all their bashers and haters . . . and now . . . . I'm having this strong urge to watch EXO Showtime but the thing is, the moment I watch it, I know my fangirl's insanity would be at stake. HAHA.

So tell me people of the KPOP universe . . . . what should I do to save myself from this lovely lovely demise? HAHAHA lol, even I myself know that there's no turning back. I've officially fallen for EXO, way too deep to get back up.

I sound so poetic right now hmm (• ε •)

Anyways, I just wanna share this haha. It's a really big thing for me.

I guess what they said about hate (in my case, dislike) turning eventually into love is true after all. (─‿‿─) (✿◠‿◠)