Why heroo, how you guys been? Its been awhile haven't it? I still rememeber constantly staying up really late every night updating my stories for you guys. I honestly miss everything. I really feel like theres a big hole between us now. Even though I never really communicate with you guys, however, I felt connected with you guys every time you guys leave a comment under my stories. I really miss updating, but I been really busy ever since my last update, which was PROBABLY two summers ago..? I feel really guilty for not updating anymore, I feel like I just left you guys hanging. That's not a great feeling because I know exactly how that feels. But, not in this case of course. LOL.

The only reason why I haven't been updating since the summer of my junior year because, honestly I was quite lazy. LOL Guys, you know you can get lazy sometimes and you know it. DON'T DENY. LOL, sorry if this is sort of boring. It will get better, I promise. haha! But anyways, the only reason I'm writing this is because I want to reconnect with you guess again. I want to build a friendship with you guess, nam sayinn~ hurhurhrur I'm really hoping I can get close to my readers and maybe we can become chingguuu's! LOL

But yeah, lately I been quite busy with school, friends and dealing with boy drama. /sigh

School, oh school, So, If you guess didn't know I'm a freshman in college this year, and man, I never thought it would be so stressing. I'm the type of person that does everything last minute, oh I mean last minutes. That is one of the traits I really hate about myself. I try my best to do everything on time, but I'm a HUGE procrastinator. GOSH, I feel like a failure sometimes. Don't you guys have those moment where you're in the verge of falling asleep in bed when you suddenly remember you have a HUGE english paper due the next morning. The worst part is that the assignment was given probably two week before. WOW, DO I . In the end, I try to manage by time and try my best to turn everything on time. As of right now  my major as nursing. But, now I have doubts if I still even want to become a nurse. Reason being, I'm currently taking care of my baby cousins as a job and honestly, I really enjoy it. From that, I suddenly thought about changing my major into child development. I really enjoy being around kids because I, myself still act like a kid even though I'm eighteen years old. I honestly feel like I living in an eighteen year old body with a mind of a ten year old. Its just an eight year difference, but thats pretty big to me. When I'm around my cousins, or younger kids in general I feel like I can connect to them. I understand they way they think, and I understand what they want and such. But yeah, hopefully everything works out for me.

Ever since I started driving, I been hanging out with my friends a lot, I mean like, sneaking out my house around 12 at midnight just to go to ihop and we wouldnt be home until maybe around three in the morning. That would be on a school night too, man, never again, but we still end up doing it anyways. LOL My friends and I do the most stupidest things ever we even decided to prank our friends during my summer of senior year. Since we got really bored one day.  We created so many memories. Memories that I never thought I would created. If, I somewhat worded that right. haha. Like everyone says " Live your life to the fullest." I hung out with this friends so much to the point where we would know how they would react to everything, and what they would say. My friends and I would mostly go to eat and play games, blast kpop in our cars with all the windows down whenever we have the chance. I could tell my firends everything and they would give me all their advice, but I never listen to them anyways. LOL But yeah anyways, moving on to my "boy drama" Ugh, I recommend you, if you're reading to get comfortable. I don't know if you guys read my other post about "Defining Love" or some like that. Oh lawd, I feel like my ghetto side is going to come out. LOL

If you guys didn't read that post it was basically my summer romance with a neighborhood hottie that I been crushing ever since I was in middle school. Long story short, I was his secret admirer and we ended up going out. I basically dated him all summer, and man, it was a new experience. I could say that he was my first love, we shared so many memories with each other. But yeah, I broke up with him after the first week of school was over. I felt like a for breaking up with him through text. A total , but I honestly think breaking up with him would never happened if he never asked me If I would be mad if he got a second girlfriend. HONESTLY, who would say that? like the flying ? Yes, he was totally my ideal type of guy, looks and personailty. However, the gods gave him extra personailty traits. That didn't fly with me, but anyways. I been hung over this dude for three months now. Did I mention he was nine years older than me? But if you look at him, he still look like an eighteen year old. I would to share my memories with him, but I feel like I shouldn't sink myself into deep depression. Within that three month period, I talked to him. I was constantly thinking about him, recalling every moment we had together. Ugh, I feel really short breath right now. I don't know if its the karaoke blasting around me or its just my heart. You know, after breaking up with him, I constantly feel like crawling back to him. I was the one that broke up with him but I continue to hang on to him. Yes, I will admit, he treated me like sometimes, but times where I feel like I'm flying the way he treated me. I don't know, but anyways. Let me just skip to the part where this nigguh ing messaged me saying he ing misses me. Then I asked him if I could believe him, then he goes on saying, you know never mind, you like playing games but I'm not a game.

LET ME JUST TAKE A MOMENT... THE ANGER IS SLOWLY COMING BACK.

ARE YOU ING KIDDING RIGHT NOW?! YOU WERE, "YOU" WERE THE ONE THAT PULLED THE ING I MISS YOU CARD. AND YOU DON'T EVEN WANT TO TELL ME IF THAT WAS TRUE?! 

Dude, don't you dare with my feeling. I damn sure you don't like people ing with your feeling, so don't even with mine. WITH YOUR . HMPH. stop bullting me with your when its not even true.

So we been talking lately, and Yes I know its not healthy for me to talk to him, but It just... happened. But I hate how that hoe just left me hanging. MAN THAT HOE. THESE HOES AINT LOYAL. LOL. Gosh, boys, why must they be so cruel? especially his kind. I honeslty been dreading over him for three months now. It , a lot since he lives right next to me and I have to see his . -_- 

Oh sorry guys if I got a little a carried away, I seriously apologize. I just need to let out some of the anger.

but, to wrap this up, guys, I been thinking what if I started a youtube channel? about Kpop, and maybe rants? challenges..? or some kind on that line? I been really wanting to start a youtube channel. It would be great if I have you guys input :D

Rememeber when I said I wanted to reconnect with you guys? Please follow my personal account on instagram, and add me on snapchat :D 

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I hope you guys have a great day, and hopefully we become great friends! with lots of love, jonglicious <3