2014 is the worst year for me.
And today, Nov 27 2014 is the worst day for me.

Out of all groups out there,
Why B.A.P? with SLAVE CONTRACT?

Why must it be my favorite group? What did they ever do wrong to be in this kind of situation – stuck in where no one appreciates them? They worked so hard which I always take as my inspiration yet it becomes like this. Why must it be B.A.P?

Every day, every night, I would think about them. Thinking about how it feels to be in their world tour concert, singing along with them and also meeting other babys. Because I never went to their concert before, I have saved my money for their next world tour. However, I couldn’t see it coming anymore.

There’s a lot of things happened in my life. Miserable things of course, yet I don’t give up. And why?

Because B.A.P inspires me from their songs, from their concern, from their love, and from them. I’ve always want to meet them and thank them. I want to tell them how much they mean for me. Most of you won’t understand how much they mean for me because I don’t understand it either. All I know is, because of them, I am still smiling, dreaming, and live well.

Whenever I am feeling down, I listen to their songs. I watch their videos. I admire their hard works which makes me feel really better. I am so glad that I know B.A.P in my life. Even though they don’t even know that I exist, I am still glad. So glad that I would smile every time I look at their pictures.

But I doubt it now.

What will happen when I look at their pictures again when I’m feeling down? I’m sure that my lips would curve up into a sad smile as I tell myself how much I miss them. And missing someone would bring me nothing but tears.

What makes me feel more broken is, I read this “B.A.P had planned this since May(I think so) and waited Zelo turning into 18 so they could fill the lawsuit.” I don’t know whether it’s true or just rumor but it really makes me broken-hearted.  

Call me crazy or attention seeker but I don’t care. This is exactly what I am feeling right now – broken. All I wish is, for us to stay together. For B.A.P to keep inspiring me from their songs. It doesn’t matter from what company as long as I can still listen to their songs, especially written by Bang Yongguk, I’m glad and I’m sure I am not the only one feeling like this.  

B.A.P, I appreciate your decision but can’t you six stay together?