I don't feel so good right now. I can't even celebrate the birthday of my bias because of the heaviness in my heart.

I'm not mad he's going to get married.

We can all be selfless and foolish for love.

He's a grown man. He has all the right in the world to make his own decisions because it is his life. He can choose whoever he wants to marry. It all wouldn't matter to me because as his Everlasting Friend, the thing I wanted the most was for him...for them to be happy.

It's just...

I'm hurt we were the last one to know.

Trust is what holds a relationship more than anything.

It's sad. It to be leftout in the dark. It to be confused.

But do you know what the most?

The feeling of hurt & betrayal.

Because a part of me tells me that it was me who chose to love them first. And for that they doesn't owe me anything.

I don't know what to think anymore. I love this fandom...I know I would stay...but some things are broken...and it takes time for the wounds to heal....

:(((