college is so hard!! IDK if its the new environment or it's me....i was failing all my test since last 2 weeks and ever since foundation cluster began i felt like my concentration and drive are slowly drifting away..

I'm having doubts about my capabilities and then questions like is this really the kind of profession I would want to be in the next  three years? What if i can't be a good professional someday? What would I do if i fail? starts pestering my mind. 

I really doesn't want to quit...:(

I'm not that type of person...

I feel like i'm not doing my best yet....

it's so hard to be in a kind of situation that you're not used to ..

I think I'm going to stop reading fanfics for a while...

I know i'm in hiatus right now...but i need to have my concentration back...and reading fanfictions is one of the distractions that i need to avoid FOR NOW....

I'd go back after our finals....and hopefully I could update....

Please pray for me >.<