Luhan is my first and ultimate bias. I love the K pop fandom, I love many other groups but still... no one Luhan is comparable to Luhan.

He's the most magnificent person and I love him so much. He isn't just an idol who dances and sings... he's my inspiration for everything that I do.

This news just confirms my fears of the boys being treated badly... I don't want him leaving EXO but I'd rather see him go that to know that he isn't happy while he makes me happy. Though breaking down and crying my heart out would be the most normal response, I would stay up and dry and continue to love him with all my heart.

With him leaving... I'm afraid I'll have to leave the fandom too...

I can't bear to see a show when I know that the people behind them are really suffering.

I have made commitments in this site and also to others... I'm gonna finish them all first and then I'd have to move on and this is the easiest way I think I could handle this sick reality...

I hate to hate anyone yet I have to so that I won't hate myself too.

Betrayed for the umpteenth time... that's what I feel right now and I'm sorry if I had to pour it out to you who is reading this. I just need an outlet before I burst.

Luhan being freed from his suffering is enough for me to accept all of this today but it just hurts so much that I think I would settle in feeling this pain for now.

I love Luhan and I love EXO... forever.