30 September 2014.

the day SONE fandom has been shaken so badly; that everyone wished it was just a ing nightmare. 

there are just too many burning questions that I wish to ask but I know it wouldn't be that easy.

SM is famous for dodging or giving valid reasons for anything bad that happens to their artistes. 

they will try to churn excuses after excuses to make themselves look good; and their artistes look like . 

they will victimize themselves and make the artistes the bad people.

sheesh, can't you see SM being a shrew and cunning sly fox? 

or should i say, KYM?

He has practically destroyed all the groups that LSM has painstakingly built over the years. 

Every group just falls apart under his direction.

But after all said and done, my darling ice princess has left the group.

I couldn't cry.

I just couldnt at all.

Half of me is relieved that she's moving on.

but half of me is angered. somehow betrayed. 

and a piece of me has faded away.

losing jessica from SNSD is like losing a limb from my body.

pain.

hurt.

2014 is definitely not our year.

i hope time will heal all wounds. 

i sincerely pray that it will.