Hello there:) Its been awhile since my last update. I'm sorry for not being active in aff this past year. Well, I am active; but only in reading fanfics. It seems like I took a long hiatus on my blog. I'm not being ignorant or whatever. But, I lived a hard life right now. I just recover from my shock over Yifan-EXO things (I know, it just took THAT long), my health failing me (as in REALLY), stressing over study matters(UGHHH) and family's issue. Its hard to handle all this matters at once so yeah.

As in Yifan-EXO's issue, I can't say I'm 100% over the matters but at least I accept the fact that Yifan will never be part of EXO again. Unless, there is miracle that made Yifan is Kris again; in which I highly doubt it. I believe that Yifan got his reasons behind all his decisions and I (just learned to) respect it. To Yifan, I'm sorry I took this long to (fully) understand you but no worries, I got your back right now:) To EXO, I don't know what to say but just keep strong. I'm always be with all of you. By the way, I DO NOT TAKE ANY SIDE AT THIS MOMENT. 

About my health, it keeps worsing. Like; I got dizzy all day, feels nausea at times, double visions. And I found out there is another lump in my left chest(as in you-know). Actually, I did remove a lump at the same side back in 2012. And now it appears again. I don't know what to do. All this symptoms, I just can't- hahhh. I don't know what to comment. Should I go to see a doctor? Or not? 

Study. Its hard. And I know it since the beginning. But, one fact I didn't know was how civil engineering can be so HARD. Plus with my health; it's not helping in any way. I'm in the verge of failing my course and I'm afraid. Only a year more to get my dips and I don't know what to feel. Happy? Sad? Confuse? Haaaaaa.

About my family, I just can't tell you about it because its such a private matters. But, I indeed feel conflicted when I supposedly not. Family thinks I'm okay (because I fake my condition) when I'm not. I need to keep it like this or just be true to myself? Haa. I don't make any sense right? I'm sorry. 

But yeah. That's my rant. Thanks for listening (or in this case; reading), if you do. I really need somebody who will not judge me. Goodbye and good night; it's 12:17 a.m. here. 

p/s: I know my rant is confusing but seriously, this is only 20% of what's going on in my head. I don't know how my brain is not exploding right now; with all the problems.  

p/s/s: English is not my first language (I'm sorry?), so pardon me if there is any grammatical error.