Recently, Hu has been missing N.O.M’s activities. The other four members have been attending events without Hu. It’s been like that for a while and people have been asking, “Where’s Hu?”, “What happened to Hu?”. Yesterday, September 4, they announced on NOM’s Official Fancafe that Hu official withdrew from the group and that the rest of the NOM members will be continuing their activities without Hu.

Although, I can’t say i’m totally surprised, but I am. Somehow, I knew something like this was going to happen. I knew that one day, at least one member will leave NOM. Why? Because in all honesty, NOM hasn’t been doing well in the entertainment industry in Korea. Yes, they are popular in the Philippines, but only because they keep on coming back. Although I love the staffs of JM Star, I can’t help but admit that they don’t know how to manage a group well. They may be the home of Little Psy, Hwang Minwoo, but an idol group is different from a child star. They can’t even get NOM to perform at a music show for two consecutive times! I’ve thought about NOM’s line up changes before, but I was never so sure of its chances until Peach Girls, NOM’s sister group, lost two members and replaced them with another two. Hyunji, who was a member of Peach Girls, is now going to debut under a new group. When Peach Girls lost two members, that’s when I realized that a line up change might really happen with NOM.

So now that it really happened, i’m quite surprised that Hu is the member who left. Although, I love NOM with all my heart and God knows how much I sacrificed for them, I somehow felt like it was either Yongki or K who would leave, not Hu. But with Hu’s frequent M.I.A moments, I can’t help but find myself stupid for not thinking that he might be the one to leave the group. No, I never hoped for anyone to leave, but I knew it was possible.

I have some thoughts and ideas about why Hu left, with one being that JM Star isn’t such a good company to be in. Another is because Hu might be wanting to focus on his studies for now. I know it’s too cliche for an idol to leave a group for studies, but somehow I have full trust on Hu. He is attending School of Performing Arts Seoul, and I don’t think Hu would just leave for nothing, and I don’t think he would give up on music. He loves music like it’s his life. He wouldn’t just give up on it.

So how do I really feel about this whole situation? Strangely, i’m calm. Although, it did add on to my recent depression because of what happened to ladies code, whom I really love, but i’m fine. Maybe it’s because I somehow predicted it would happen too. In whatever Jeonghu’s decision in the future is, I will support him, not because I was his fan at NOM, but somehow as a friend, although he may not see me as a friend. If ever he joins a new group in the future, I will be happy. I will get to see him perform again. Will I think of him as a traitor, or something like that? No. He did it for his own good and he has his reasons. I have no right to question his reasons, nor judge him badly right now, because I don’t know what he’s thinking or what he’s been through. I’ve always seen Hu as my ‘playmate’, July baby friend (since we’re both born on july and that our birthdays are next to each other), english speaking person. Of course, i’m disappointed but I can’t do anything about it.

I guess what i’m trying to say is, no matter what, I will support Min Jeonghu and NOM. Even if they disband and join other groups, hopefully not, I will support them all.