Sorry to take up space in your aff but I just need somewhere to write this down.

Because it's my last weekend in this town, i had invited my coworkers and friends to come to my house for dinner. I've been telling everyone to come for dinner for the past week haha

I really like cooking so I made a lot of food, about six to seven dishes.

But I feel like that kid nobody in elementary likes. That loser kid.

I had my sisters, sister-in-law and brother help me make the house look presentable and help me make the food.

And yet, only two people from work showed up. And only five of my friends did.

Oh, I know, I'm such a loser, right?

I spent a couple hundred dollars for food and about 5 hours cooking and most of it is now in the fridge, to be forgotten then thrown out in a few days.

Why can people just say no? I wouldn't have gotten my hopes up and spent so much effort if they just told me they won't come.

I feel like that loser kid in elementary that invites the whole class to her birthday party and yet only one kid shows up.

I feel stupid. 

I don't like it.

Sorry for taking up space.

I just had to let all my frustrations out.