[Warning: Longgg rant about EXO...] 

Look... I'm not sure if you're "over" the Kris situation because it's been a month or less. I'm not sure if you still care or not about EXO's problems.

But, I do. 

I've been worrying so much about him. 

I've been worrying so much about EXO. 

I'll confess: I JUST got into EXO the month before Kris nullified his contract. 

I felt the feeling of joy because I found a new group to love.

Like the first time I discovered BOYFRIEND, Girls' Generation, CNBlue, and all my other favorite groups... 

When they cried, I found myself letting the tears fall as well. 

When they laughed, I could help but do the same.

When they smiled, I smiled. 

I wasn't with EXO since their debut - I won't lie, but... 

They had a HUGE impact on my life. 

They woke me up in the morning.

They inspired me more. 

They made me a shipper.

To have the news that Kris was really leaving was all so sudden for me.

I cried, yes. I cried my heart out. 

I cried for Kris. For EXO. 

For every single member who was missing him like hell. 

For all his fans which dreamt of meeting him one day.

He wasn't even my bias - Not even on the list. 

But, I respected him. 

He was "cool", funny, stupid at times, and hardworking. 

He had a soft-spot for his family - His mother.

He... Was almost like a reflection of me. 

When he left, I was shell-shocked. 

Literally.

For the whole week after I heard the news, I was so bad at expressing myself. 

Really bad. 

I cried when my friend's brother made fun of me, and they all thought it was because of his teasing. 

But, no. I was used to all that. 

It's just... All the emotions I was trying so desperately to hide - 

Came all out when he made fun of me. 

About Kris.

About EXO. 

A few weeks later I was able to calm down and reflect. 

It was Kris' choice. 

It was Kris' life. 

No one is in control of it except for him. And Go

If he wanted to leave EXO, I said a good-bye.

A tearful, yet smiling good-bye. 

"Please be happy, Kris."

Then there was news about Baekhyun dating Taeyeon.

Again, none of them are in a bias list - Except for Taeyeon, who climbed up because of her singing skills, but...

I never had a really deep connection to either. 

Yet, when I heard that - I was overjoyed. 

Elated. 

Happy. 

For them and their relationship. 

Then I heard that fans bashed BaekYeon, like, an day hour after.

I heard that Taeyeon apologized to her fans and Baekhyun's fans multiple times on her Weibo or Twitter account. 

I heard that fans called them "traitors." 

That they "kept secrets."

That they lied.

All of the EXO members are going so through so much.

I read a post about Tao talking about EXO's "problems this year." 

Poor panda must have been crying often - You know he cries easily.

Then - 

Sehun changed his handlebar on Weibo or Twitter to eleven members.

But, for me, "EXO will forever be one."

That will never change. 

If only see eleven members, I know in my heart that they were twelve. 

That they were one.

 I won't forget Kris' legacy - Among interational fans at best. 

When I heard that Kris is filming in Prauge, I couldn't help but smile... 

And cry. 

I cried for his happiness. 

I cried for EXO's happiness. 

I cried so that they won't cry anymore.

But, I will look ahead with a smile.

Because whatever their choices are...

“I'll be happy for them.”

Omo, I realized that I'm such a crybaby as well. ;-;