I wanted my first blog post to be something nice and fluffy. Something like "OMMGGGGG MY FAVOURITE FIC GOT FEATURED". Never ever have I imagined it would come down to this.

Baekyeon. Or Byuntae. Or Taengkung. Or just Baekhyun and Taeyeon. 

Don't get me wrong. I love Taeyeon. Words can't describe how much I love her. And Baekhyun, the puppy that wrecks my bias list with almost every single performance.

So this morning, I check my twitter, and guess what? My two biases kissed in a car. 

They kissed in a car.

They kissed in a car.

The only thing going through my mind was WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT IS THIS A JOKE ITS NOT FUNNY WHAAAAAAAAAAT IS THIS PHOTOSHOP IS THIS EVEN BAEK IS THIS EVEN \[.|]~|]<€{*~=<]+}€~[=*|€[{+$~€={ NOT TRUE NOT TRUE DAFUQ IMPOSSIBLE IDC IDC IDC IDC IM NOT BELIEVING GUAHHHHHHHHH

MUST BE SM. MUST BE. THAT EVIL. TRYING TO BRING STOCKS UP EH? TRYING TO TAKE ATTENTION OFF GOT7 AND BEAST COMEBACK EH? 

Trying to take attention off the picture of underage Baek drinking eh? (I feel a little disappointed tbh. But oh well not like he's the only one. People make mistakes.)

This is the Denial stage. The first stage one normally experience when your biases do something that is not quite the same as what you expected them to do. And you grieve. ;A;

After I got over that stage and accepted the fact that yes they kissed (in fact I remember Baek wearing that shirt. I just had to pretend that I forgot.), I felt anger. 

*speaks in the dangerously calm tone* What do you mean Taeyeon and Baekhyun are dating? Maybe it's just me, but hey the Kris issue is not even solved, and here you are cuddling with your sunbae/noona/girlfriend. What about the other members? What about Suho? Did you not think about what consequence your actions would bring? Baek you have to think about these things. You don't just throw yourself in love because you're in love. You know why? Because you are an idol. I know idols are humans too they deserve to be in relationships human rights blablabla. That's what everyone says, but it's never really ok, baek. You may be fearless. But you're still only human. You will get hurt. There will be haters, there will be fans who turn back on you. There will be fans who get hurt because of you. What about all those promises? Promises may just meant to be broken, but that does not make it alright for you to break it. 

And you, Taeyeon. Shouldn't you know better that to just jump into a relationship like this? The current EXO is already unstable. Are you trying to make it worse? You are older than Baek. If you truly loved him, you would not be shaking their fandom even more. What EXO needs now is full support from their fans. Isn't it hard enough for them that Kris left? Yet again, you may be fearless. But fearless does not mean reckless. Even the most fearless have to face their consequences. You may not fear the consequences, but the people around you, the people you love may get hurt. It's true that already 2 other members of SNSD are dating their respective boyfriends. However it's a case by case basis. The Baekhyun now is not yet suitable to be in a relationship. There are too many things at hand that needs to be sorted out. Falling in love is not an option. Not now.

(Do not hate me guys. When I'm in the anger stage I usually think a lot, enough to write an essay. I already omitted all the vulgarities ;A;)

Then, the bargaining stage. The stage where you doubt yourself and you doubt everyone as you try to get more information so as to decide if you should accept or continue to be angry. This is the stage where most people wallow and turn back to anger, taking it out on the people involved ( in this case Taeyeon and Baek, as shown in all the hate comments they received on insta), or move forward to depression.

I moved forward to depression. And it was not fun. 

You might spend hours watching their MVs and listen to their songs over and over again. You may spend hours watching all their interviews, showcases, and even showtime and xoxo. (I'm more of a exo stan so forgive me if I don't mention snsd) of you're a Baekhyun stan, you may cry and even hurt yourself. Or maybe, you would just sit for a while, and go through the whole thing in your head all over again. So many different ways to show you're depressed, and none hurts any lesser compared to the others.

But eventually, no matter how long, you will get over it.

You will finally accept. 

I'm not Taeyeon. I'm not Baekhyun. Who am I to judge their decisions? I'm just another face in the crowds that's intrigued by them, attracted to them, and giving love to them.

That's what we should all do. It may take a while, but a while is enough. 

I'm going to keep calm, and continue loving Baekhyun and Taeyeon. Because that's what I do best. :)

Ps. Still let's have one moment of silence to grieve over the destruction of the Chanbaek ship ;A; 

Signing off, VenenatisPicus